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A Needle Between Worlds
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I woke up to the smell of old timber and soot.
"You're alive," the old woman said, voice the sound of someone surprised by small miracles.
"I—where am I?" I croaked, tasting dust and something sweet on the air.
"This is my house. Sit, child." She propped a bowl of thin porridge under my nose. "Eat before you faint."
I gulped the porridge like it might vanish. My head spun. Modern images—an embroidered ribbon on my wrist, a racing car's headlight—folded into something older, grainy and stubborn.
"Who bought you?" a clear young voice asked from across the room.
"A husband?" I managed, and my mouth smiled because the word tasted oddly safe.
He looked like a boy pretending to hold the world. He had a plain blue robe, hair not long enough for a scholar's queue, and eyes that widened when he saw me eat.
"My name is Kai," he said. "My mother said you're my wife. I will fetch you more porridge."
"You're my husband already?" I teased. "You better hurry."
Kai blushed like a spring apple. "Not yet our room. But call me by my name. Do not be familiar until—"
"—until the papers are signed?" I finished for him and laughed.
He blinked. I laughed again and felt a strange warmth settle in, like a thread being sewn into a frayed hem.
"Eat, child." The old woman—my new mother-in-law—hovered with worry, then with the slow business of a woman who had decided I was her profit or pity.
I had been hit by a car on my way to an embroidery contest in my old life, and now I woke in a field home someone called "Zhao," in a body younger than mine and in a time that smelled like wood smoke and wrongness. The body's name in the mirror had been warmed by hunger, by small humiliations. I could feel her cravings like a tremor: one single, stubborn wish—to eat my fill. It was a small wish. It had survived two lifetimes.
"You can sew?" Kai's mother asked later, when a handkerchief blossomed under my fingers.
"I can draw a pattern," I said. "And I can stitch." I smiled the way you do when you show a coin you found in a gutter.
She called me blessed and greedy at once. "A seamstress who eats," she said. "We took a fortune for you. Two coins."
"Two coins?" I whispered later, holding the green inked handkerchief. "That's why they bought me."
Kai watched me with a softness that made me want to test him.
"You deserve better bread," I said later, bold with full belly.
"Maybe," he said, and I saw him measure the horizon between his hunger and mine.
Days—if I could even count them—unrolled into work. I swept the yard, learned the rhythm of pots and sparrows, and avoided asking where my old life had gone. Grief came quick and sharp at night, but the needle was later.
"You're a farmer's fool if you only sew to feed," I muttered one morning, picking up a big basket to climb to the chestnut copse.
"Don't call me a fool," a voice snapped. The woman coming the other way wore a pale patterned robe and walked like she owned the road. "You are my rival already. I am Leighton. You are only a bought girl."
"Leighton?" I repeated, narrowing my eyes. "We have the same first name, then. But not the same luck."
She shoved her shoulder into mine. The shove could have been small. The shove aimed where pride grows.
"Watch where you stand," she said, and walked off with the air of someone certain she would get her dreams.
I found mushrooms and chestnuts and one afternoon, a baby fox trapped in brambles. I cut it free and thought, like a small child, that kindness was currency too. The little fox licked my wound, then scampered back, and later, in a fogged dream, a white fox in mist told me a time and a place to be ready.
"Don't be fooled by my silk," Leighton said another day at the market when she saw me speak privately with Kai. "Kai will always like what he's always worshipped. You'll be cast away."
"Maybe," I said. "But right now, I want thread."
I sold embroidered handkerchiefs in town, and the cloth merchant—an excited man named Anton—noticed the drawing I left on the counter and called me a miracle.
"This pattern," he said, tracing the brushwork. "Amazes me. Ten coins, twenty, for someone who can provide such designs!"
"It was just a sketch," I told him, trying to sound like a woman who had a little shame and a lot of skill.
"Bring me more," Anton said, and when I left I felt the first greedy flutter in my chest.
Back at home, Kai pressed a small red packet of coins into my hand—"buy ribbons, buy what you like"—and I felt that warm thread again. It was astonishing how small gestures recruit an army of hope.
"You should go more often," he told me later. "If you must be away, buy a donkey, not your back."
"I'll buy a donkey," I told him, and the world narrowed to steps and plans.
Then, one afternoon, I met trouble.
"You're the new wife," a woman sneered on the lane. "The one he hauled from the widow's queue."
"Mind your tongue," I said, sharper than I'd meant. "I have my hands full of good stitches."
"Good stitches or not, you'll be gone," she spat, and pushed, hard enough to make me stumble.
I caught my foot on a root and almost tumbled headlong into the ditch, heart slamming hard against chest.
"Watch your step!" I snapped, but the woman—Leighton—was already strutting away.
"She's trouble," she called over her shoulder. "Buy your bundles—"
I kept the head-up and the purse closed. I had to.
But then the real trouble arrived in soft cloth, on a carriage that smelled of lacquer and arrogance. Gustavo Seidel's men moved like mosquitoes with silver in them. He ran a fine embroidery house across town but his eyes ran on money.
"You sew," he told me later, when I was inside his house at last. He looked at my design and smiled like someone who chews on a secret. "Your talent could make me rich. Or—"
"Or?" I asked, and my skin crawled.
He studied me like a trader. "Or I take it by force. You know how tradesmen do. Loyalty is scarce."
I left him with an offer and a warning. The offer—one hundred gold pieces—was obscene. The warning—one woman's body is not a bargain—was ignored.
"Either you work for me," he said, leaning in, "or you learn what happens to women who see too much."
"You think I'm a show," I said. "You think I won't scream. You think you're the only beast here."
He smiled as though I had offered him dessert.
"It is a subtle thing," he said. "You will be safe if you listen."
I left, but I didn't feel safe. There was a heavy place in the pit of me that said danger. It had hands.
That danger spoke in blood.
I should have left the terrible embroidery into which I had once peeked alone. I should have never followed its thread. But when Anton begged me for designs for the market and when the county needed a gift before the winter festival, I told myself my small acts of courage were for my family: for Kai and for his mother, for the old teacher Martin Moore and his ruined household. The needle, once threaded, begs to be used.
Gustavo's house reeked of lacquer and secrecy. One night, in a garden where peonies opened with wealthy arrogance, I found a woman with her throat cut. The sight was a shadow-sound: hair sprawled wrong, flies already gathering like tiny black punctuation marks.
"No!" I cried.
Gustavo was there. He smiled like a man who owned all endings.
"It is just business," he said. "People move on."
I saw then that his house was a trap. The silks lay like nets. The money like weights. I saw the missing girls. I saw how the county's own men looked the other way.
"Why?" I whispered in the dark, and the throat said nothing.
He had me taken. He made me pretend. He locked me in a room that had names carved on the beams and a single window bright with lantern light. He threatened me like a man who thinks threats replace courage. He wanted my work, my silence, and perhaps, my compliance.
"Make me the clothes the magistrate asks for," he told me the next morning, chin high over a table. "Make them so beautiful the county will forgive the rest."
"I will not stitch with blood," I said.
"Then you'll be useless," he said.
He left sword-edge jokes in the night. The pipe of my breath was small. I learned to sleep with one eye open and a plan under my tongue.
I wrote a letter.
"You can't see him," I told Kai one night through the slats of a window. "I will go to work with them. But not to be trapped."
"What will you do?" he asked, voice the thin string of courage I clung to.
"I will use what I know," I said. "If my stitches speak, they will speak for the people."
"Don't go," he said.
"I have to," I said. "You will be all right. You have your books and your mother. I have my needle."
He took my hand. "Bring me a ribbon that smells of you," he said impossibly like a sea.
"Only if you'll buy me a donkey," I answered.
We traded promises like coins.
The county magistrate—Franklin Kim—came to the embroidery house with the sweep of a man who expected to be served and feared nothing. He sniffed and smiled at the wrong moments, the way men who hold rank do. But he had instruments too, and when you show a man evidence enough, even rank will tremble.
"I will see the truth this night," he said, and the house hummed.
"Do not be fooled by gilded hands," I thought, but I had no voice yet. So I worked.
I embroidered the thing that had stolen lives—an image that would not lie. A double-faced piece: on one side a white cat, on the other side an orange tabby. Both eyes alive. Both faces pulling at the same thread.
"Turn it," I told Anton when I gave it to him. "Turn it two ways and watch."
Anton did, and his mouth made the shape of a prayer.
"It is as old as a rumor," he breathed. "It is the book, it is the thing they wanted."
Gustavo blinked. "Where did you—"
"I didn't steal it," I said. "I will show it to the magistrate."
He swore then, and his fingers went to a dagger. He wanted the piece for himself. He wanted the power it promised.
We took the piece to Franklin Kim. The magistrate's eyes flickered. "This is the technique," he said. "If found, it will answer questions."
"Who had it?" Gustavo lied.
"Someone sold me a drawing," I answered quickly. "But someone else did the crimes."
The magistrate did not believe me enough to tear shoulders open on the spot. He believed only law. But law is a rope, and if you are clever, you can hang a noose around another man's pride.
That night the house was a volcano. Men shouted. Swords clashed. The house's bones shook. Someone—someone with greed in their hands—moved to silence those who saw too much.
Gustavo moved to kill me.
"Never," I said.
He had power, and he had knives and men, but he did not have the last word. Because I had learned the old lesson: if you know how to stitch, you know how to bind and hold.
I escaped with help from the strangest places—a knocked over brazier, a loose shutter, the soft paws of a fox who had once been a dream.
I ran into the night like a scrubbed debt. I ran back to the magistrate. I screamed. I showed the body in the garden. The magistrate's temper was the match.
"Search them!" Franklin Kim ordered.
Gustavo's men were slow or loyal or dumb. The magistrate called soldiers. They came in the blue of law, capable as winter.
Gustavo tried to buy his way out. He offered pearls and pledges. He swore the dead were debtors. He begged the magistrate to sleep.
No one in that room would let the night be just another night.
The next part was a scene I had quieted in my bones to imagine.
"Bring him to the square," Franklin Kim said. "Bring all his servants. Let the people see."
The square was a hard circle of stone and breath and voices. The town's folk lined up like stitches: faces threadbare from fear and hope.
"Let them speak," Franklin Kim said to the crowd.
"Throw him out!" someone yelled.
"Bring the tapestry!" a louder voice demanded.
They brought Gustavo before the crowd. He stood like a man who believed his coins could block the sky. He laughed when he saw me.
"You stitched with our tools," he said. "You betrayed what is owed. You are a thief."
I stepped forward.
"No," I said. "He bought me with coins. He bought my silence. He bought my hands and never returned them. He sold the girls' silence and burned their names."
Gustavo's face went still as a pond under ice. "Lies," he said, and his voice lost its swagger.
"Tell them the names," a woman hissed. "Tell them how the girls vanished."
So I did. I named the missing. I named the colors of their ribbons. I said the things they could not say. The crowd quieted like linen folded.
"You ruined us to make a show," I said to Gustavo. "You thought you could stitch law with money."
He started to deny. "I did nothing you cannot prove."
"Look," I said. Anton turned the double-faced embroidery. "Two faces as one. You were after the secret. You used knives on women who knew stitches. You buried them in gardens. You hired men to hide the ink."
The magistrate's face hardened like burnt wood. "Enough," he said. He ordered men to seize Gustavo's ledger.
The ledger fell open to receipts that named names. It named the way bribes were paid, where girls were moved, how a hand silenced a mouth.
The crowd shifted. Murmurs became a roar. A woman spat. A boy threw a clump of mud. Someone took a boot off and waved it. Gustavo's earlier pride cracked like thin clay.
He changed. First indignant. "You can't—"
Then haughty. "You are fools. I am a gentleman."
Then furious, lunging to say he would pay for the town's joy—"This is slander!"
Then denial: "I never—"
"I offered silver," one of his bought men cried, and the ledger lit the paper with truth.
Then the collapse. He reached for his throat, then for his coins, then for a face he used to think he owned. He began to plead. "No, no—my house—my honor—my father—"
"Shame!" people cried.
The magistrate let the people take their steps inside the law. The town, who had been robbed and frightened and small, exhaled a justice that was long in coming.
They did not kill Gustavo in the square. They did worse.
They pulled him down from the platform. They unpinned his silk robes and let his chest air to the sun. They forced him to walk the market with a painted sign on his chest: "He bought girls and hid bodies." Children spat. Women shook their heads. The money he had spent to be untouchable became his court.
"Look," I said quietly to Kai, who stood at my side. "See who is left."
His face changed the most. At first he still wore the anger of the town. Then he saw Gustavo's men with shamed eyes, the servants who had laughed while serving. Then his eyes drifted to those who had once offered him friendship and had now averted their faces.
He watched Gustavo's hands begin the same pattern: boastful palms, then covering, then clawing for pleas.
I watched the man go thin from power into fear. He begged forgiveness. He tried to buy the forgiveness. He fell to his knees and then to the earth and then to nothing.
The magistrate read the ledger aloud, line by line.
"This shows transactions to hide witnesses," Franklin Kim said. "This shows bribes to flee justice. This shows threats to silence the poor."
The crowd's faces hardened like flint. Someone took a rock and smashed the ledger. Not to hide it—no. To show it could be broken but its truth remained inside the hands who had used it.
"What will you do?" a voice screamed.
"We will not bury the dead again," said Franklin Kim. "We will hold a hearing and we will bring the lost names into sun."
Gustavo's pleading flared and then dampened. He went through the stages everyone in this town had read about in a thousand tragedies: pride, rage, denial, bargaining, tearful pleading, collapse.
People took turns.
"Tell them how you sold the girl with the blue ribbon," a voice hissed.
"I did it for gold—" he said.
"But you killed her when she recognized you."
He flinched.
"A man who kills for silk should not wear silk," someone shouted.
They stripped his house of its finery before his eyes. They pulled the sills, the carved frames, the lacquer cabinets, and they spread the goods in the square. Mothers took a piece. A seamstress took a bolt of cloth and cut it into aprons for the church. The money he had hoarded became a pool for the families he had hurt.
And his family—oh, his family. They had stood by him like they wore shields. Now they walked away, step by step. A sister who had once smiled at his coin stepped forward and spat into the dust in front of him. A child who had called him father turned his back.
He wanted to bargain.
"Take my goods, not my name." He sobbed.
"They take neither," Franklin Kim said. "They will take your freedom."
They bound him with ropes that felt less like chains than reflection.
"Let the women see him," a voice demanded.
They made Gustavo face the mothers. They let them speak. They let them tell the things he had hidden with a knife.
He changed color from terrible to smaller than a candle. He tried to laugh; the laughter died. He tried to rage; his legs shook. He tried to bargain; the town made a wall with its eyes.
When they led him away, his voice broke into pieces.
"Please," he sobbed like a child who had dropped his last pearl.
They did not stifle him. The public is cruel when it is hungry. But the magistrate ensured cruelty tempered with law. Gustavo would go to the prison. He would be tried in the county and then in the higher courts. People spat, and they healed by spitting.
"Let this be a warning," Franklin Kim said aloud when the ropes were tightening. "No man will hide his deeds behind silk and coins."
The crowd dispersed.
The punishment was not sweet. It did not satiate all the hunger. But it was a beginning. It was a beginning filled with the small, sharp stitches of justice: the names on the ledger, the families given token silver, the tapestry burned into public memory.
I watched Gustavo's bravado shrink into something like a child asking for milk. The world had turned on his heels. He had collected trophies and now he had to carry the shame.
He screamed as the rope bit and the magistrate read the final line that sent him away.
"This man used wealth to hide murder and trafficking. He will be held until the law decides."
His face crumpled. He begged. He vomited around the base of the platform. The crowd watched just enough to feel that the earth itself had taken a small revenge.
When it was over, a hush fell. I stood on a stool, and Anton put the double-faced embroidery on the magistrate's table.
"This is how the world stitched back," I told them. "You cannot make cloth out of silence. Someone had to speak. I have spoken for the lost."
Kai squeezed my hand then—not in public, but the squeeze was an entire promise. He had watched me move from a bought girl to a woman companies feared. He had watched me become a person with a voice.
We did not become rich overnight. The county took Gustavo's goods. They gave token silver to the families. The magistrate made an order: any household using names from the ledger must answer where they came from. The colony of missing girls started to be counted.
"I will not pretend all is well," Franklin Kim said in a later hearing. "Law is slow. But the people have spoken."
We returned home with small coin and big scars. The old teacher Martin Moore slept again without plans to die. Anton smiled like a man who found his artist. The market sold small pieces of the once-luxury fabric to feed a hundred hungry mouths. The foxes watched. Someone said the little fox I freed had been seen on the hill the next morning carrying a bag like a human child.
Kai rebuilt me a small frame for my embroidery. "I will plant a patch of chestnuts," he said. "We will eat our fill."
"You will not sell me again," I told him.
"You will never be sold by me," he said, both clumsy and dead certain.
I learned to sew with a new hand. I signed my pieces with a small fox motif on the corner. People started to recognize the fox. They started to call me the fox-stitcher.
Time did not make the past vanish. But it did make a line you could cross.
We buried the missing girls in a mounded place with stones and names. People came. They did not clap. They placed food. They sunburned on the knot of the hill. I stitched the names into a cloth—one side the girls' faces, the other side their favorite colors.
When the magistrate delivered judgement months later, Gustavo's house was taken by the county. He sat in court and changed like a man who had been unpicked and retied. He begged for mercy, then for leniency, then for death. The town petitioned for the severest punishment allowed. The magistrate gave a sentence that matched the law and the will of the people.
"Let no man think he can buy the bodies of others and sleep easy," Franklin Kim said.
It was not vengeance. It was not easy. It was the law. The crowd left. We went back to our patchwork lives.
Kai and I planted a donkey (in terms of savings), and I kept embroidering. I had been a girl from the future who loved an electric hum and a contest ribbon. I had become a woman who could turn grief into stitch, who could show a double-faced embroidery to a magistrate and change a county's mind.
"Did you ever see a dream fox and feel like it was real?" I asked Kai one winter night by the stove.
"Once," he said. "I dreamed you were laughing, and a fox gave me your name."
I smiled and set the needle. The thread slid and my fingers remembered the time when two lives braided into one single seam.
And sometimes, when wind flicked the lanterns and the chestnuts were warm, I thought I heard little paw-steps in the yard.
The End
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