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"I Died on Purpose — Then I Took Back My Life"
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I sit up with a start and taste river mud in my mouth.
"Princess—" Blythe cries, hand on my arm, voice tight. "You woke! Thank God."
I stare at the lacquer ceiling, at the silk that smells faintly of smoke, and at Blythe Campbell's lined face. My head throbs. A memory that is not mine — cold water, the long dark, the final quiet — presses against my ribs like a hand.
"Who... am I?" I ask, but the words come out wrong. They come out like the old voice that used to answer to this name.
"Anning," Blythe says, and she smiles and sobs at the same time. "Princess Anning, my lady. You were—"
"I remember," I cut her off. I force my memory to the one detail I could steal: my life before. I was Bonnie Liu yesterday, a grad student who had worried about a thesis and laundry. Now my fingers are small and powdered, and I wear silk that shouldn't fit me. My heart does not belong to this body. I keep that fact like a card against my ribs.
Blythe babbles like she thinks I will break if she stops. "You fell into the Lotus Pond, my lady. The maids… you were so pale—"
"I didn't fall," I say, and the room tightens. "I woke up in someone else's story."
Outside, the courtyard is quiet. I swing my feet off the bed and sit barefoot on the wood floor. My head hurts and the palace makes my skin crawl. I have seven days. Seven days since I stole my own death.
A stone taps the pond. I look up.
Two people walk into the courtyard. The first is Crown Prince Maverick Hahn in a yellow brocade. His eyes are too sharp. Behind him walks a woman with a smile that doesn't reach her eyes — Kora Lynch, whose soft voice made me stomach-sick the first time I met her.
"Anning," the Prince says smoothly, voice like a blade. "Have you decided? I am the only one who can truly help you now."
I laugh, and the sound surprises me.
"You are very kind," I say. "You staged my disgrace. You staged my seeing the emperor in his folly with your woman. You trapped me into silence. You are 'help' now?"
Maverick's fingers curl. "You are—"
"I won't be owned," I say. "Not by you. Not by my father. Not by an empty throne. I choose—" I take the old voice on; I speak with the steel the other woman had. "I choose my life."
Kora Lynch's smile goes thin. "You play at freedom, Princess. You're only a pawn."
"I am done being someone's pawn," I answer. "If I must be a pawn, I will be a pawn who learns the board."
Maverick storms off like a man who throws things when words fail. Kora watches him go and mouths threats I do not bother to hear. Blythe watches me and trembles.
"Have you a plan?" she whispers.
"I have a map," I say.
She blinks.
"Not of land. I mean a plan."
Blythe's face folds in. "You can't leave the city. The Emperor—"
"Then I'll leave the city," I say. "They think I'm dead. Good. I will use their belief." I look at Blythe hard. "Pack what you can. I need three things: clothes that do not fit anyone in the palace, food for the road, and the body we buried faked."
Her fingers go to her mouth. "We buried—"
"Yes. A body similar, a fire, the curtains. You did it. You are my accomplice in everything now."
She gathers herself and steadies. "If you choose this, I'll stand with you."
I let myself feel the grate of gratitude and then push it down.
Seven days later the funeral smoke curls east. I stand in male clothes — my hair dark under a cheap cap. I am not Princess Anning now. I am Bonnie, thief and refugee in a gown of men.
I ride south on a mule I cannot afford and the city shrinks behind me. The farther I go, the more the roads pock with the misery of hungry people. I keep my mouth shut and my head low. I can speak the language, but not the letters. Books stare at me like strangers.
On the third day, I find him.
A man in the ditch, lips blue, his face slack. He tries to speak and gasps my way. "Brother," he manages.
I kneel. "Can you tell me your name?" I ask, because I do not want his eyes to close without someone knowing him.
"Dempsey," he whispers. "Tell—tell the leader…"
He coughs and his hand clutches a small silk roll. He pushes it into my palm with such force it's as if he thinks it will float my name for him.
"Deliver it," he says.
"To who?" I ask.
"To… Garrett... to Garrett Clarke in Ruijin. Tell him—tell him Ling's map is real." He chokes, looks at me, and dies.
I fold the little cloth into my collar and press a thumb into the thread where an X is stitched. A map. A map to treasure. It seems out of place in the mud and blood of a dying man's hand, but I feel my life tilt. If the map is true, it changes everything. If it is false, it is still a hook.
"Rest," I tell him. "You did not die for nothing."
I carry his body into the scrub and dig. The earth is heavy and the air is thin. I cover him and say a nonsense prayer. Then I roll the map into a tighter tube and slip it into the hidden fold of my collar. I am careful; I always promise — to a dying person or an old woman who risks you — I will do what's asked.
I am not far on the road when a group of men on horseback cuts across the path. They ring the horse to a halt.
"Hand it over," the lead man says. He is young and cruel-faced. His hands tremble with nervy blood-lust.
I pretend ignorance. "What?"
"You,' he says. "You were with him. Hand over the small silk."
I do not answer. I fold my hands and back away. But then a hand slaps my shoulder and I taste iron.
Cornelius Solovyov rides up cold as an open sky.
"Leave her," he says.
The young leader bows; his men draw back.
Cornelius dismounts and looks at me. He has the face of statues — sharp molar jaw, eyes like coals; his hair is black and falls neat. He is a cut from another world. I have heard the name: Jingwu Marquis, the warrior who walks like winter.
"You are reckless," he says, voice flat. "Why carry a map and expect no one to ask?"
"I did not expect… anything," I answer. In my throat there is still the echo of the dying man's voice. "He asked me to deliver it. I will."
Cornelius's lips tilt. "You will not."
The men around him strip the dead man. They find no map at first. Then he orders a search. One of his lieutenants says the silk is not on the body. Cornelius looks at me like a hawk looks at a second bird. "Where is the map?"
I remember what I promised. I press my jaw tight.
He sees my hand tug at my collar. He walks forward. "Show me."
I do not move.
Cornelius laughs once, low and sharp. "Stubborn," he says. He steps forward and a man — Bamboo, his chief — grabs my wrist. It burns like a brand.
"Open," Cornelius orders.
I keep my mouth shut.
"Very well," he says slowly. "Then we will use other methods."
They forced me to the ground and forced toxin down my throat. My body folds like a book. Pain blooms and I vomit. They laugh because it is sport for them. The dead man is flung into pieces before my eyes and I have to look because that is where they think truth is: in ruined flesh.
I throw up. It feels like my clean, modern self being peeled off me.
"You will talk," Cornelius says. He is not cruel. Cruelty is not in his voice; it is in his choice. He stands like a judge. "Tell me of the map."
"I don't know," I croak.
"Then you will watch."
He gives no other men the job of splitting the dead. He does it himself. The sight should have been some show of fear. For me it is a scream and I throw up again. The blood in the air makes the old woman's hands in my chest fold shut.
For thirty minutes he watches me throw up. For thirty minutes he calls me liar and coward. For thirty minutes I refuse. I am small but solid. I bite and spit like a trapped thing.
At the end, bleeding and hollow-eyed, I still say nothing.
Cornelius does one thing I did not expect. He steps back, removes his glove, and takes a silk handkerchief from his sleeve. He wipes his sword after sheathing and says, "You will come with me."
"Why?" I whisper.
"Because," he says simply, "you are useful."
They carry me like cargo. I am hot and cold. At night, when the men sleep in a ring of dark, he sits across from me and watches me breathe.
"Why keep me?" I ask finally, because I cannot stand another hour of silence.
"Because you don't break," he says. "And because you have a map that someone wanted. You hid it well."
"How do you know that?" I ask.
"Because you gave your word to a dying man," he says. "Only certain people do that. You will be hard to use. You have backbone."
That is not a compliment. It is a diagnosis.
We ride for a while. I keep the silk buried in my collar. A band of masked assassins attacks in the night. Cornelius comes alive in the swordlight. He moves like a story. He kills like a man who has killed before; it is swift, efficient, and he is gone like a mountain swallow. They call him the Killing Marquis for a reason.
I slip free during the chaos. Men are shouting and blood is in the air and a man called Bamboo curses and then runs and I run with him. The world goes narrow and I run. The map is still tucked into my collar, warm against my skin like a promise.
He calls for me to be brought back. I look and see a figure in the trees moving with an odd limp. A needle glints and I see Kora — the woman who smiled like a viperscale — and the blast of poison hits him. The injury hums under his skin. He does not fall. He backs away with a face I did not know at all: fear.
Later, when the moon is a cold coin in the sky, he pulls off the old man's hat he has been wearing and folds it gently. His face is not as old as the hat. He slides the hat into a bag. I watch him because I am a thief of faces now; I learn faces as a discipline.
"You are hiding," I say.
"I am tired of men who think they can find my face," he answers. His voice is low, and there is a small, dangerous humor in it.
I do not tell him the truth. I do not tell him that I am the woman whose body was promised and burned. I lie. I tell him the map is nothing. I tell him I will give up anything.
He nods. "We go to Yizhou," he says. "We wait for Garrett Clarke's men. You keep the map." He sounds almost tender when he says it.
On the road toward Yizhou his steps slow. The poison stung his hands and the right side of his face is paler near the jaw. He is older by night and younger by day. He uses long baths and sweat and dark mutters on the side of the road. On the fourth day he collapses.
"I need a doctor," he says.
"You could see Garrett," I suggest.
He snorts. "He is not a physician. He is a man who drinks and counts soldiers."
He is stubborn as iron. "We stop in a town," I decide. "You stay. I will go on with the map."
He looks at me with eyes that remember every blade he has ever drawn. "You run again," he says quietly, "and you'll never see the world you left. You're not that one anymore."
There is a fierce kindness buried under the signal of threat in his voice. I do not have a family to define me. I have no father to keep calling me a product. I only have choices. I choose to stay.
"Fine," I say. "But if you die, I will cut you into pieces and feed you to the fish."
He cracks the tiniest smile. "You were always cruel."
The first night I cook for him with almost nothing. He tastes the stew and nods like a man who receives a report.
"You know how to cook," he says.
"I used to order in," I say. "In the other life."
He laughs like a broken thing. "We will make this life quicker."
He sleeps. I watch him. His chest rises slow and even. He keeps one hand under his head and one hand empty, like he is holding a sword he will never have to use. I wonder why a man who has everything would carry so much emptiness.
Over the next weeks there is a fierce, private rhythm between us. I treat the wound on his arm with boiled roots. I learn how to bind, how to push nails out of small splinters. He teaches me how to stand when a man comes at me. He watches my fingers like a craftsman checks a blade.
One morning he says, "You saved his life."
"Who?" I ask.
"The man who gave you the map," he answers. "You kept your promise."
I stare at him. "I had to."
"It matters," he says. "People who keep promises are anchor points." He studies me. "Who were you before you were princess?"
I think of libraries and a small lamp and a can of bad instant coffee. "Bonnie," I say. "That's what I used to call myself."
He nods. "Bonnie," he repeats. "You are stubborn for reasons. Good."
He starts calling me "Bonnie" from that day. He does not use "Princess" unless other men are near.
We reach Ruijin. Garrett Clarke's men search the inns with low voices. We hide in a drab tea-house. I slip the silk out. It sniffs of smoke and river mud. Garrett Clarke's name is scribbled in a corner in heavy ink. It is a map fragment — not a treasure X. It points to a place on the coast, a stone tower named Twin-Fingers, and a small symbol of a boat.
Cornelius recognizes the handwriting. "A mercer's code," he says. "We will not be the only ones who cross the sea."
We take the map and fold it into his scabbard. He says, "We go by sea." He pauses. "You will learn to sail."
I choke on laugh and thrill. I have never sailed in my life.
On the morning of departure, a woman slips a note under his door. He opens it with a frown. It is a small scrap of paper with a child's hand-drawn tree. No message. He looks at it for a long time.
"It was Kora," he says finally. "She sends small threats."
"She tried to kill you with a pin," I say.
He nods. "And failed." He slips the note into his sleeve close to the heart. "She is small but hopelessly cruel. She will not stop."
The ship ride is steep with salt and the spray picks at my face. Cornelius stands at the prow like a monument and I keep a hold on ropes. I learn knots as he teaches. He stands close enough that the heat of him is a fact. It is not yet a promise.
In the market of Yizhou, I steal attention and make it pay. We need coin for the voyage. I set a small plan in motion, a seed from the professor I used to be: test a market. There is a low tier brothel called "Bethspring" and the women there are tired and poor. I buy drinks and bread, I teach them to wear the same color and walk the street in patterns, I make a show. I paint a woman named Nova Belyaev — known in that house as Flower Smoke — with a simple smear of red oil and a hair arrangement and she becomes an image.
"We can make them more than what they were sold as," I tell Cornelius one night. "We change the rules. We will not take trafficked women."
He looks at me and asks, "Why?"
"Because someone has to," I say. "Because I want a place where no one is sold."
He studies me, the weight of his life behind his eyes. "Do it," he says, and then, softer, "If you want help, say so."
That is the strangest command I have ever received: permission to call for help and be believed. I laugh.
We found "Heaven and Shore" from the crumbs I have of advertising sense. I teach the women simple shows, I invent a menu with small sweet cakes the cooks can make with rice and honey, and I train Flower Smoke to dance and play a small lute. We make the place clean. We refuse the trade in kidnapped girls. The house becomes a strange magnet. Men who came for boredom come for the bowl of citrus salad they have never tasted and for a woman who reads and laughs and is not for sale.
The old manager, a woman with spotted hands, watches the first evening they are open and we do a roll call of coin. We take in more money than the whole city takes in a week. Old men whisper the house has good luck, and good luck is contagious. Word spreads. The Emperor's men hear rumor and thoughtless officials send the wrong kind of curious. But the house stands. We sign a promise in front of the women and the old keeper. "No trafficking," we write with Cornelius's long, steady hand.
I do not know what I expected from him when we started this — respect, maybe? loyalty? He gives me both in stead of flattery. He stands watch sometimes on the second floor, pretending not to care, but when he looks at Flower Smoke he often softens. He critiques the way she holds the lute and then, in private, pulls my sleeve and asks, "How long before she can do ornate picks?"
The woman who runs the house sends me a letter three days later. "You made me four thousand silver," she says. She passes me a folded slip, and on it is Flower Smoke's handwriting. Nova's letter is clumsy and bright: "I tried to tell you. I—" it ends in scratches.
I think of the note I found under Cornelius's door. I think of small hands drawing trees in the margins.
That night, Flower Smoke brings me a little note of her own. I cannot read it, of course. Cornelius reads aloud: "She says she loves the way you make her laugh. She asks if being loved is teaching a skirt to dance and the head to think."
Cornelius whispers, "She is sincere."
"She is young," I say.
"She is dangerous," he says.
He watches me. He is quiet and large and I notice the line of his throat and the way he holds his chin. One night, Nova comes to me with a sealed paper. Inside are words of confession. She tells me she likes me, that in her old place she had no name. In the old laws of the court this would have been scandal. Here it is simpler: Nova is a woman who says what she feels.
I laugh. "She thinks I like women," I tell Cornelius.
"You are not hers to read," he says, brow low. "She should not risk herself."
"She risked herself to confess," I say. "You did not stop her."
He looks like a man recalling his youth, when his mother told him the world would demand a cost. "I did not know."
You become someone when people begin to trust you. I had not expected trust to be so warm.
But all roads that glitter for a moment darken somewhere else. News rides as fast as rumor. In the Capital, a grapevine of lies grows long enough to choke. Maverick hears that I am alive. He hears that I run a house, that I laugh, that I make coin. He sees my position as: a tool that can be reclaimed. He will not be content with loss.
He sends a formal letter to the Emperor asking inquiry. He files a complaint that a "dead" princess has defied the laws and is running a den. The Emperor, already fragile with guilt and a rage he does not show for his own deeds, summons a hearing.
"Go," Cornelius tells me quietly the day the summons arrives. "You will stand at the center and speak."
"Speak what?" I ask.
"Truth," he says. "And if they want a spectacle, give them one."
He does something that I cannot predict. At the hearing in the capital — a great hall packed with men in gold embroidery and quivering clerks — I stand and look at the Emperor's face. He is old, the skin on his hand is soft and white and once I would have knelt and wished for his approval.
I stand.
"You allowed my daughter to die," I say into the warm air. "You allowed me to be traded and lit and mourned. For seats and for schemes."
There is a rustle and someone coughs. Maverick sits like an arrow in velvet. He smiles at me with dangerous patience.
"You," he says, "are speaking of treason."
"I am speaking of choices and what my name meant," I answer. "I was a woman who would die rather than be used. I took my death to make a path."
That is the beginning. Then I lay out names. I pull out, one by one, the threads I had been stitching. The dying man's silk and the map; the orders that had been sent by a clerk whose hand I had learned to trace; the anonymous letter under Cornelius's door, which when I had the courage to pry had a seal I recognized — the prince's motif hidden underneath Kora's mark.
I speak with evidence. I call for witnesses — Blythe comes trembling and testifies about how the burning night had too many hands, about how Kora Lynch had been nearby. Flower Smoke testifies quietly about being approached by the Prince's men. Garrett Clarke, who owes Cornelius a favor, brings the man who sold the map. The paper folding in my hand becomes a web.
Maverick's face does what faces do under pressure: it tries to command argument. He denies. He slaps a figure at me like a judge.
"You fabricate," he says. "You are relishing drama."
"Choose," I say calmly. "Either you arrest me and I leave, or you answer to the court."
He stands. "Do you think this court will believe a street beggar and a brothel girl over the crown prince?"
"They believe the Emperor at first," I say. "But they believe truth when it is not dressed in flattery."
Then I do the thing that makes the hall fall into a hush: I speak the truth of what I have seen. I tell them I saw the Emperor with a woman and the Prince used that shame to engineer a quarrel. I show the clerk's tally. I produce the servant's note with Maverick's hand-binding and Kora's staging. I hold up the silk map and I tell them the prince had soldiers on the road to intercept anything that might help the Marquis.
Maverick laughs first. "She lies to cover treason," he says.
"Then," I say, "let us test the truth."
I turn to Cornelius. He stands up then, tall and terrible as a gathering storm. He had meant to be quiet in the hearing, but the thing he carries inside him is edges and hunger and the courage of a man who has fought empires. He throws down his gauntlet on the polished floor.
"I claim the right to challenge these accusations," he says. His voice fills the room like the call of a hunter. "Bring forward the men who thought they could hide behind forged seals. Bring witnesses. Let the records be searched."
Maverick goes pale as a man who has been counted and found wanting. His shield crumbles. Men shuffle their robes. The scribes check ledgers. Names match, handwriting matches. Kora's name is implicated in the sending of men under cover. The court can no longer hide from the truth.
Maverick begins to speak faster; his hands twitch. He moves from arrogance to denial to pleading. He says the evidence is planted. He says the servants lie. He calls for guards to seize Cornelius and me.
Cornelius steps forward and speaks in a tone I have only heard near the edge of battle. "You will not take her," he says.
Maverick's face swims. He points, wild-eyed, and says, "You murderer! You killed Anning!"
The hall erupts. People shout. Scribes pull out scrolls. The Emperor sits, his face a mask of a man who has been betrayed by both sons and servants.
At last, with a sound like a wave breaking, the truth sweeps across the chamber. The clerk who had written the forged orders confesses under duress. Kora's name comes up in a steady stream of testimony. The prince's attempt to frame me falls apart like dry bark.
Maverick's composure cracks. He runs red from shame and anger. "You're all liars!" he screams. "I— I have served the realm!"
"You served yourself," I say. "You used a woman's shame to make a bargain. You used your father's fear. You traded my life as if it were a coin. You are not fit to walk among men who carry honor on their shoulders."
His face collapses. At first he rages. Then he reaches for the rails. He tries to plead with the Emperor, he tries to claw sympathy from the crowd. He begs whispers and slaps out at anyone who comes near him. He demands that the guards arrest us both. The Emperor's hands tremble and he looks broken, the sort of broken that only a man betrayed by his inner house can be.
Blythe steps forward, eyes bright. "My Prince," she says in the tone of a woman who knows how to hold a knife. "You have misused your father's name to plot and to harm. You have turned the court into a stage for your vanity."
Maverick lunges at her; two men pull him back. He plants his feet on the floor, sobbing out words that used to be commands. "You will not—"
"Silence!" an old chancellor bellows. "Order!"
The crowd surges like a sea. Men who had admired Maverick step away. The Prince's friends abandon him. A messenger runs out to the stables. The Emperor's face chooses law over favor. The Emperor strips Maverick of his command for the time being and warns that a full inquiry will take place. The Prince roars and then collapses.
But the ruin they will not let him avoid is not only the banners and the stately shame. It is the human unspooling — the wife who once smiled at him withdraws her hand in the hall, her eyes cold. His groomed allies send terse letters withdrawing favors. Merchants he patronized move his goods to other houses to avoid contagion.
A week later disguises and courtiers who had once hugged him in public now peel his name off lists. His wife files for separation before the investigators finish. The household is hollowed, and on the first market day, the people who had once cried for his victories now shout at him in the street and throw rotten fruit. His name slides from esteem like a boat taking on water. Guards who once stood by him do not answer his calls. The scribes publish lists: no titles, no honors, his name marked as one who broke trust.
I watch the fall and I feel a sick, sharp thing in my chest. I do not celebrate with glee. Revenge tastes less like triumph than I expected; it tastes like a hollow that widens the space where trust could grow.
The court is loud and messy afterward. Cornelius waits for me at the door when I step out. He holds a paper with the Emperor's seal.
"I could have had him killed," he says quietly.
"You could," I say. "You did everything but."
"So why didn't you?" he asks.
"Because killing doesn't make the truth kinder," I say. "Public truth and pain are related, but not the same."
He studies me, his jaw working. "You are not soft," he says, an acknowledgement and a question.
I look up at him. There is a moment — the world whittled to the distance between us. Then he bows, quick and surprising.
"Bonnie," he says, and his voice is a low thing that fits my name like a hand. "Will you accept… a different kind of life? Not as pawn, not as public sorrow. Be my equal in the things you choose."
My mouth goes dry. This is what I had fled: offers from men who thought they could buy my life back. This is not a purchase. There is no ring, no fanfare. He says it like a man who knows the cost.
"Why me?" I ask.
"Because you stood," he says. "You kept promises. You made a house that refuses theft. You refused to die for someone else's theater. You do not beg for designation. You make it."
There are a thousand answers I could give. The smallest is true: he looked at me like the last man in the night who could see my face without wanting to bargain. The larger truth is that I had learned — in every life, in every small act of survival — to choose.
"I will be with you," I say. "But not as your trophy. As your partner."
He draws a breath and reaches for my hand and at the contact, something thunder-smooth happens inside me. The sound is not fireworks. It is the small folding of two lives trying on the same world. He holds my fingers like he will put maps and promises into them, and he looks at me in a way that is careful.
We do not marry in the great way tabloids would love. We stand in a small chamber and sign papers — legal names, not gilded vows. I will have lands to manage and coin to allocate. He will keep his sword. We make an odd team: a warrior with a mind for plans and a woman who remembers supermarket deals and winter reading lists.
Years pass in the way that growing something takes: with mud and pruning and too many nights awake. "Heaven and Shore" thrives. Flower Smoke becomes a star who writes songs and sells them as seeds to children who want to be brave. Blythe becomes my chief steward. Cornelius brings law to towns where none had it; he brings soldiers not as predators but as shields.
One night — years later — we stand again at a lotus pond. The same pond I jumped into to leave death. I hold the silk map, now framed and placed in a chest as a reminder of the night that changed me.
"You kept a promise," I say.
He looks at me. "You taught me to keep more than military strategy," he says. "You kept promises to small people and to your own stubbornness."
I look at him, at the age in his face and the steadiness in his hands. He is older than I am by a decade; he has a way of protecting that feels like a roof. I would not call it domination. He takes up the larger burdens so I can be loud in small things.
"You?" I ask. "Are you happy?"
His smile is small. "I was empty of a few things before. You are not a possession I was given; you are a life I get to learn."
He steps close and kisses my temple. "Will you ever stop choosing me?"
"Not if you treat my life as yours," I say, and I mean it.
He laughs softly. "I will burn any man who calls you pawn again," he promises, but it is not a boast as much as a vow.
We stand by the pond, and the carp circle like coins. The world is quieter than the day I first woke here. I fold the silk map and tuck it into the inner seam of my gown. It will sit there until one day I give it away or burn it or hand it to a child who asks to learn navigation.
"One thing," I say, looking at him. "If you ever split a dead man again just to make me talk, I will take your blade and file it blunt."
He winces. "Noted."
We laugh. He holds my hand like a man who knows storms and knows also how to build shelter.
The final scene is not fireworks. It is the small domestic peace of a bed not cold. It is Cornelius making tea and calling me Bonnie across the morning light. It is Nova playing a tune on the lute while children learn the song and the women of "Heaven and Shore" sit in a circle telling their stories.
I think back to the pond and to the burned curtains and to the first man who died with a map pressed into my palm. All of those events turned like keys. I do not pretend losing my old life did not hurt. I would not trade my past for what I have now. I took my life back not by force of the court but by small, stubborn acts: promise kept; house run; map kept safe; truth told loud.
"Bonnie." Cornelius leans forward. "Stay."
I rest my head on his shoulder. "I always will."
The pond mirrors moonlight. Above, a single crane calls, low and clear.
The End
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