Revenge18 min read
I Kept the Evidence and Smiled
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I remember the first time I discovered the message: it was a line on a small glowing screen that called my wife "baby." The room smelled of coffee and the Christmas tree lights were still blinking from the night before. I watched the word "baby" appear and felt a light, ridiculous grin crawl across my face.
"Who is 'baby'?" I didn't ask it like a man confronting an enemy. I asked it like a man reading the weather.
Violeta looked up from the breakfast table and said, "My friend. She has a new boyfriend. Don't make a fuss."
"She?" I said.
"Leave it," Violeta said, but she stood and opened her coat.
"Are you going out?" I asked.
"I have something to take care of," she said, and zipped her bag.
I went out two blocks behind her.
"I wish you wouldn't follow me," she said the next morning, when I pretended not to know.
"I wasn't following you," I said. "I was getting coffee."
She laughed then. "You always have coffee when you follow me."
"I'm ridiculous like that," I said, and I meant it. Ridiculousness was a shield. I watched without breaking stride as she met a man at the corner, a man with expensive shoes and a suit that made him look like a headline in a business magazine. He put his hand at the small of her back. They went into a hotel.
I don't know why I didn't smash the glass, scream, or throw plates. Instead, I found it funny. I found it absurd in the way a bad joke is absurd. I came home, sat at the table with my two children, and asked Violeta about some trivial thing. She kissed me later on the couch as if nothing had happened. Her hesitation was a little thrill; her half-resistance made me feel sharp and alive.
"Do you know why I kissed you?" I asked her that night.
"No," she murmured.
"Because I can," I said. "Because it's ours for the moment."
She looked at me like she was trying to decode me and failed. "You're acting odd," she said, half amused, half tired.
"Odd is good," I told her. "Odd is honest."
For three years I collected the evidence. Three years of "baby" messages and hotel names, of photos of room numbers, of times and faces. For three years I smiled. For three years I did not tell a soul. I had a family—two children, a house whose payments were made by the salary I hid from others. People admired my marriage. I was the man everyone envied. That made the whole thing sweeter.
"Your brother's coming tonight," Violeta said one morning. "Grayson will be back from that night school of his. Make sure to buy lamb."
"Sure," I said, and I noted the time she left the office. I followed the coordinates she had tried to keep private, and I made mental snapshots. I installed quiet trackers. I built folders and backups. I buried copies in cloud accounts and a flash drive that I hid at the only place they would never look—my childhood home.
Grayson was a good actor. He waved his hands and called me "brother" as if we had a blood oath. "Give me five thousand," he told me as soon as he stepped inside the door. He had that look—hungry, entitled, the way a boy expects presents for breathing.
"No," I said at first.
"Come on, Jalen," he whined. "It's a sure thing. You'll see, one dollar becomes two tomorrow."
"You've said that before," I said, and then I transferred five thousand into his account.
"Why?" he asked, surprised. "Are you soft now?"
"I have my reasons," I said, and I meant: I have my plan.
Grayson leaned against the counter, eyes glassy. "I owe people, man. People are at the school. They're mad. I'm sorry."
"Then stay home and be sorry," I told him. "But don't ask for money."
He left with my cash and my smile. Later that day he was back with empty pockets and a laugh like a stolen thing. "Thanks, man. I squandered it. But you're the best."
I was. I wanted to be the best for the wrong reasons.
When I put in the test for my children, only one kit came back as mine. The other was not. My life narrowed in that instant to a single blunt instrument: the truth on paper. The daughter, Brynlee—I would give her everything. In my head, this turned into a poison and an offering at once.
"You're going to spoil her," Violeta said sometimes.
"She's a child," I answered. "She will be spoiled."
My generosity wasn't softness. It was a slow, meticulous box of matches I was stacking around the house.
"How much did you make this month, Jalen?" she asked once, flipping through receipts.
"Enough," I said. "Enough for us. And for my son—Eamon, he needs a future."
"Eamon's mine," she said. "Of course he is."
"Of course," I said. "Of course."
Violeta worked as the cash cashier at a local company. She had charm, an open laugh, and, apparently, an ability to make men fall into the wrong beds. Over the years she had been close to at least three men at work: Alejandro Medina, the general manager; Hudson Robin, a procurement manager; Miguel Graham, who handled the warehouse. Each folder in my archive had a name, a date, a room number. Each was a small, sharp stone. Marcel Medina, the loan officer at the bank, had called Violeta once with "a friendly tip" and then later told her in private things that made her message bubble light up with "baby."
One Christmas morning I watched a single message and followed. I watched and did not act. What a strange kind of power—knowing without being known.
Weeks passed. I cultivated a new kindness toward my in-laws. I spent money on them. "This is for your neck, Beatrice," I said when I carried in a massage chair for my mother-in-law. "You stand all day. You deserve rest."
"Small things, Jalen," Beatrice Gardner said, squeezing my hand. She had a way of looking through me and at me both.
"They're from us," Emory Knight, my father-in-law, said. He was soft with me in a way he had not been with his son.
"I couldn't have done this without you two," I said. "This house is yours."
They believed me. They let me into their living rooms and into their trust. I let them. I shelled out two thousand for a pair of niceties for Emory. "You saved us a lot," he said, smiling the way older men smile when they are relieved.
I smiled back as though I were being saved too.
"Grayson says he's ready to settle down," Violeta told me one day. "He's found someone. They want a house and a car."
I felt the gears in my mind shift into a neat, terrible motion. "We can help," I said. "We should. He is family."
"You? You're going to help him buy a house?" Violeta's voice rose, then lowered into that strange mix of anger and fear. "We can't mortgage this place. This—Jalen, you can't be serious."
"I can," I said. "I'll figure it out. If Grayson gets his act together it will be fine."
She looked at me; I practiced a face of care. "You're different," she told me.
"I'm learning," I said.
We went to the bank. I watched how she laughed at Alejandro Medina's jokes. I watched Alejandro place his hand just a little too long on her elbow as she signed papers. I pretended not to notice the small exchange—the way words had the comfort of a lover behind them. My throat filled with a slow, volcanic amusement.
"Your friend seems nice," I said later, handing Grayson a cigarette after the bank.
"He's solid," Grayson said. "Thanks, man. This is—this is huge."
That was the word I used—huge—when really the thing was small: a mortgage, a car loan, a contract with a signature. But Grayson bled into the plan like a spill that could not be stopped.
Two weeks later, the contract that had been supposed to anchor Grayson was used as a bridge for a second loan. Grayson was faster at ruin than I imagined. He took five thousand, then thirty, then sold the second loan for quick money, losing it before the day ended.
"Come back," I said when he slumped into my kitchen. "Come back and tell me."
"Give me two thousand," he begged.
"Two thousand now would be stupid," I told him.
"Please, I'm going to flip it. I know this one trick—"
"You don't," I said. "You never will."
He broke down, sobbing like a man ready to jump into fire.
I let him beg. I staged my own collapse. I hit my head on the cabinet so the blood would come, so the guilt would be visible and loud.
"You're not allowed to go tell anyone," I whispered later as he bandaged my wound. "You swear?"
"I swear," he said, and I read his face and found no mention of truth in it. He meant to swear—he meant to comfort himself with that oath—and then to forget.
After he left, I called Violeta on speaker. I let Grayson hear her voice for a while.
"Jalen, what is wrong with you?" she snapped. "How could you let him do this? I told you not to help."
"I'm scared," I said into the phone, and I let the tear in my voice be a blade. "Grayson… he might do something terrible. He borrowed. He has people at the school. He might—"
"He what?" she hissed. "Who told you he borrowed?"
"Someone at the bank," I said, meaning Marcel Medina. "He told me."
"Marcel?" Violeta said, and the phone filled with the sound of her pulse quickening.
"Listen," I told her, "I'm exhausted. Are you coming home? The kids—"
"Shut up," she said. "I need to think. You don't call me like this."
I hung up, and I laughed. The laugh was a small, quiet thing, because I had started a machine and I could not stop it. When she left that night for a company function with Alejandro, I watched her leave. I recorded the time. I took a mental screenshot.
Grayson did what Grayson does. He ran to confront Marcel. He was dangerous in a way I had not intended. An hour later, a video arrived on my phone. Marcel was on his knees in a dusty alley, torn clothing, blood slick down his cheeks. Grayson had found an accomplice and the two of them had made a monstrous scene.
"Why did you do that?" I asked the screen.
"Because he lied to me," Grayson texted back. "Because he told my sister off."
That night everything got sharper. I dragged files onto my laptop, zipped folders, attached a selection of videos and documents to a single link. Twenty-seven folders. Twenty-seven men. Twenty-seven rooms. Twenty-seven times.
I did not send it. Not yet. The plan was not cruelty alone; it was construction. I wanted the right symmetry to it. I wanted people to see what I had seen, and to feel a tiny, precise burn.
"Do you have everything?" Brian—no, Brian was not a name I could use. I used names from my list instead. I told myself the names were details. I pressed my thumb into the hardened USB I'd hidden years ago and then closed the drawer.
"Are you happy now?" Violeta asked one night. We were in bed. I had asked her an absurd question because I wanted to hear anything that would sound like confession.
"What do you mean?" she said.
"Are you happy?" I said again. "With him?"
She sighed. "I can't believe you're doing this. I don't know why you hoard misery like it's treasure."
"I'm not hoarding misery," I said. "I'm keeping record. I'm keeping memory."
She pinched the bridge of her nose. "You're sick, Jalen."
"Maybe I am," I said. "Maybe sick people survive better."
The house felt like a stage. I fed Brynlee candy in the evening and told her the same silly stories she liked. I bought her the best hamburgers, the ones with extra sauce that stained her chubby fingers. "Eat it slow," I said, and she giggled and smeared sauce onto her chin.
"You're softer on her than on Eamon," Violeta said once, and the accusation came like a stick. "Why? She's not yours."
"I know," I said. "I know."
She flinched and then walked away. "You're doing something cruel."
"Not cruel," I said. "Corrective."
A week later, Emory suffered a heart attack. He collapsed right there in the living room when the conversation at dinner turned to me and Grayson. Beatrice screamed, screamed a sound you'd expect from a woman who believed the world could heal if everyone obeyed decency.
"Call an ambulance!" Beatrice shrieked. "Call someone!"
"He's fainted," I said, and I did call—my voice steady and hollow. After the doctors left with Emory and the room smelled like antiseptic and fear, I called the family together.
"Grayson went after Marcel," I told them. "He beat him up. Emory—he just… he saw everything and his heart gave out."
"What are you saying?" Beatrice asked. "Stop. Jalen, stop."
"I have proof," I said. I took from my pocket the small white envelope and placed the paternity report on the coffee table. "Not everything is as it seems."
"What is that?" Beatrice whispered, fingers trembling as she reached for the paper.
"Your granddaughter is not mine," I said. "Eamon is mine. Brynlee is not."
The room became a sudden, strange theater. Beatrice's hand covered her mouth. Violeta's eyes filled with a rage so bright it almost carved the air. Emory's pulse faltered and then he was on the floor. I thought, for a second, he would be fine. He wasn't.
The ambulance came and took Emory away, and Beatrice held on to me like a child holding on to a parent's sleeve. "You did this," she said. "You did this to us."
"Forgive me," I said, and I meant that, but in a different register. My apology was to the truth I had uncovered, not to the devastation it caused. I drove away with my head pounding and a new, strange guilt that tasted like metal.
The next days were a storm. Violeta sent a hundred messages—insults, apologies, pleas. "Where are you? Come to the hospital. You did this. How could you—" and then, softening, "Please come. Eamon, your boy is asking for you."
I did not go. Instead, I prepared.
There is a peculiar calm that comes before ruin. I packed nothing. I took only the proof and the files I had assembled: rooms, timestamps, hotel doors. I pressed send at midnight to every family chat that included our circle: cousins, old friends, colleagues, Alejandro, Hudson, Miguel, Marcel—everyone.
"Why?" Violeta's voice on the phone was a strangled animal. "Why are you sending this to my boss's wife?"
"Because," I said. "Because you lied."
"You're going to ruin everything," she said.
"Not everything," I said. "Only truth."
I went to the funeral with the black ribbon already folded. I kept my face calm. I planned the moment with the precision of a man choosing where to set a single jewel. When the funeral service began, it felt like stepping into a theater where I had sat in the audience for three years.
"Please take your seats," the priest said.
I walked in and sat in the third row. Violeta sat at the front with her head bowed, eyes raw. The room was full of people who had been kind to us: neighbors, relatives, the men who had smiled at Violeta at office parties. Alejandro came with his wife and took a seat near the front. He glanced at me as if I might break into applause.
When the eulogies finished, there was a moment of silence that felt too big to fit within the hall. I stood.
"Everyone," I said. My voice in that space was the same as the voice I used when I asked for lamb chops. "May I show you something?"
"No!" Violeta wailed. "Don't—"
"Please," I said. "Just a moment."
I pressed play on my phone. The video that streamed across the screen showed Alejandro's hand on Violeta's back, then Hudson's laugh leaning close to her ear, then Miguel opening a hotel door, then Marcel at his desk leaning far too near her elbow. The chat strings scrolled across the screen: "Baby," "Miss you," room numbers, dates, times. The gallery leapt from one image to the next. Then I opened a photo of a paternity report.
The hall shifted. People leaned forward like they had been suddenly pulled by strings. For a beat there was no sound but the small, frantic breathing from those in the first rows, and the hum of the projector. Then a woman near the back gasped.
"No," Alejandro said. His voice was a thin thread caught in a storm. "This is—"
"It is what it is," I told him. "It is proof."
"You're a madman," Hudson spat. "You should be in here mourning."
"Mourning?" I asked. "Mourning is easier when you are honest."
Violeta's face had gone white. She stood up, the funeral hall tilting around her like a ship at sea.
"How could you?" she screamed. "How could you do this to my father? He is dead—"
"Do not speak to me about your father as if you loved him," I said. "You wore his trust like a coat and left stains on it."
The crowd around us shifted into motion. Phones lifted. Someone recorded. Someone's hand touched Violeta's arm and then withdrew, repelled. Alejandro's wife clutched her husband and then turned to face him, blinking as if a veil had been ripped away. "What is this?" she asked, and her voice was small and sharp.
"Alejandro," I said softly. "Do you have anything to say?"
He tried to reach for his phone. He tried to explain. "This is private," he began. "We—"
"Private?" I said. "Not when you put your name on the list of rooms. You are a public man, Alejandro. You are not beyond consequence."
A murmur began. Some people left their seats. Others gathered, forming a thin ring around us. The room smelled like lilies and sweat.
"You betrayed him," someone whispered. "You betrayed the family."
Violeta's eyes were bloodshot. She moved through the crowd like someone pushed by an invisible storm, tripping and then regaining footing. "You think you can smear me here? You think this will hurt me? I'm the grieving daughter!"
"No," I said. "You are grieving, yes. But you're also guilty. And now everyone will know."
At that point, the punishment began, though I did not strike a blow. Punishment came from exposure. It came from the shift in faces, the change in the way hands reached. It came from the sound of people moving away and the wife of Alejandro stepping back with his jarred denial like a shield.
"How could you do this?" Beatrice asked, voice hoarse. She looked at Violeta as if the woman standing before her had turned into a stranger.
"You put diapers and dinners ahead of truth," Beatrice said. "You made choices. You slept with—" She could not finish. Her throat closed.
A woman two rows back began to clap. One slow, cruel clap followed by another. "Shame," she said. "Shame on her."
Violeta sank to her knees. The dresses in the hall rustled. Someone called for calm. People pointed—old friends, colleagues, even the neighbor who had once loaned us sugar. Some took pictures. I watched Alejandro's face collapse from disbelief to denial, then to panic, then to a broken kind of greedless apology. "Stop—please, please," he said. "This is a mistake."
"Is it?" asked the woman who had first clapped.
"Who are you?" he demanded, as if demanding identity would restore his life.
"My name is no matter," she said. "You knew what you were doing."
Marcel, the loan officer, had tried to leave early. He was stopped at the door by a man who had watched the video and then circled back. Marcel's face, when the woman at his side turned and said, "Is this true?" went hard and then bitterly small. He tried to say he had meant kindness. He said he had not thought. He said there was context.
"Context?" a man in a suit shouted. "There is no context for lying to someone about a person's child. There is no context for sleeping with a married woman."
Violeta's voice broke in with a new cadence—begging, bargaining. "I made a mistake," she said. "Please, please stop. I have children here. They need care. I'm sorry."
"Who will care for them when you're the story at every office?" Alejandro's wife asked. "Who will care for them when he—" She pointed at me with a thin, accusing finger—"—is seen as the only honest one left?"
Violeta's reaction changed like weather. She flailed for explanations, then for denial, then for rage, then for tears. She tried to push people away, then tried to pull them into her story. "Jalen did this to hurt me!" she told anyone who would listen. "He sent that file to my boss's wife. He chose shame."
"Did he?" asked someone else. "Or did you choose life with men who lied to your face?"
"You're a hypocrite," Alejandro hissed at me. "You ruined a family."
"A family?" Beatrice's hands shook as she rose and faced the crowd. "Which family—your private affairs or the family that sat here trying to hold together a man in a box?"
Then the phone cameras accelerated. Seven people recorded. Two live-streams started. One woman near the back took a long, cruel photo and began typing into a message thread: "She is trash." Another man sent it to a friend who sent it to a colleague. The ripple became a wave.
Violeta shouted, "You bastard! You wanted this! You always wanted this!" Her eyes had the heat of a person who has burned her bridges and then discovered she had no home left.
"Do you want me to take it down?" I asked.
"Yes," she begged. "Please."
"Then tell the truth," I said.
"What truth?" she cried. "You can't—"
The crowd decided for her.
They had seen the evidence. They saw the paternity report. They had watched the videos. The punishment of public shaming does not need violence. It is louder than blows. The faces that turned away turned away with judgment. The friends who had once brought casseroles now murmured that we had secrets. Comments were whispered. The man who once called me "son" looked at me like a man who had been asked to swallow glass.
Violeta's collapse was not immediate. First there was denial. Then anger. Then the sort of shrinking that looks like realization. Her cheeks went hollow, and she tried to reach for an explanation that would change the transcript of her life. "I can fix this," she said. "I can—"
"Fix it with what?" someone asked. "Affairs? Lies? A new promise?"
"Stop it," Alejandro said, but his voice was weak now.
He lost the eyes of the room. His secretary left his side. His wife left his side. Marcel tried to avert his face and was asked, by a neighbor's sharp question, if he had ever loved anyone.
The funeral's air left in a hiss. People filed out in small groups. Some people stayed to speak quietly to Violeta. Many did not. Her boss's wife walked out with a small shake, like someone waking from a nightmare. A camera phone kept shaking as the woman recorded.
"You're monstrous," Violeta said to me at the end. "You did this—you wanted everyone to see me as a whore."
"Do you want to be seen as a mother?" I asked.
"That is not the same," she said.
"Is it not?" I asked.
She did not answer. She had no answer.
They left her almost alone. The ring of people around her thinned in the way a tide thins. That day, punishment came from the conversion of intimacy into rumor and of jokes into hard, cold facts. I watched Violeta writhe as people parted with pity and disgust. I watched the lovers' faces change from complicit to frantic. Marcel clutched his collar and tried to fix some explanation that had no foundation.
Later, the police came for Grayson. He had been reckless and aggressive. He had beaten a man. They took him at the station outside the funeral. Violeta screamed at me and told me I had killed our family.
"Do you think I'm happy?" I asked her. "Look at Brynlee."
She looked at our daughter sleeping in the car seat, oblivious to the storm. "You got what you wanted," she said. "You ruined me. Happy?"
"No," I said. "I am not happy."
I had tasted victory and discovered it tasted like rust. The cost had been heavier than I had foreseen: the man I had loved as a father had a heart that could not hold the shock. The children were injured by the truth, and whatever we had left between us was now a place of rubble.
But the crowd had done its work. The lovers—Alejandro, Hudson, Miguel, Marcel—lost the ordinary civility they had once shown Violeta. They faced accusations at work, cold shoulders, nosy texts, wives who would not let them near their children for a while. Punishment had widened into a social sanction: men once warm with gentle humor now found themselves unwanted.
Violeta? She stood before a mirror in the weeks after and asked me, "What now?"
"What do you mean?" I said.
"What now for you? For us?"
I looked at her then—really looked—and saw a woman stripped of illusions and fragile as a glass cup.
"Now," I said, "you decide who you will be."
"Will I be forgiven?" she asked.
"I don't know," I said.
Weeks turned into months. People whispered but seldom spoke loudly. Grayson faced court for the beating. Marcel borrowed money to pay fines and stayed low. Alejandro's wife filed for separation. Hudson got transferred. Miguel changed jobs.
At home, Beatrice's hands could not remember how to do simple tasks without trembling. Emory never regained his breath. The hospital calls emptied into silence. The thing I had built for purposes of shame had shredded people in places I had no right to touch. I felt my conscience as a kind of slow ache.
"I'm tired," I told her one evening, watching Violeta hold a small, trembling Brynlee on her lap. "I cannot sleep."
"Neither can I," she said.
"Do you know what I dreamed the night this all began?" I asked her.
She looked up, wary. "What?"
"I dreamed I walked into a store and saw a tiny ultrasound image of a child. It said 'girl' on it," I said. "I woke up and felt something like joy."
She did not laugh. She did not cry. She cupped Brynlee's face in her hands and then let go. "You are a madman," she said.
"Maybe," I said. "Maybe I am."
The files remained zipped on a cloud I could not delete. The sense of satisfaction was complicated by guilt. Children do not deserve ruin. They deserve safety and sense. I had used Brynlee as both prize and weapon.
We learned to live with the shadow of what had happened. The neighborhood talked in small bites. People stared a little less openly, as if they had moved on. Violeta tried to find her footing. She went back to work, though she kept her head down. I watched her from the doorway like a man who had both caused and been struck by a storm.
One night, after a year, she came to me with an envelope. "I found something," she said. "The tests—they were wrong."
"Wrong?" I asked.
"They were mixed, or someone swapped labels. Brynlee might actually—"
"Is she mine?" I hissed.
She shook her head. "Maybe. Or maybe not. The truth is a messy thing when you live inside lies."
I thought of the B-scan that had started it all and of the hamburger stains on Brynlee's chin. Memory is strange: sometimes clean, sometimes muddied by pain.
"Do you regret it?" she asked.
"Every day," I said. "I regret the way it went."
"Then why did you do it?" she asked.
"Because I could," I said.
She looked at me then with a kind of tiredness that meant nothing would be restored by language. She turned away and went to the children. The house made small noises. Outside, a neighbor's child laughed and the sound slipped through the window like a small, stubborn sun.
I kept the evidence for a while longer. I didn't send anything else. I let the files sit like a thing that had fulfilled its purpose and then sat idle, like a watch that had been wound and then wound down.
Some nights I would open the folder and scroll through the entries—the hotel names, the messages. I would sip tea and then put my head in my hands and laugh quietly at the enormity of myself.
"You could have forgiven," Violeta said once, softer than before. "You chose another way."
"Forgiveness seemed weak," I said.
"Forgiveness is the only thing that closes a wound," she answered. "Revenge keeps it open."
She was right, of course. But the wound had already bled out so much I could not pretend I had not been changed.
In the end I did not leave the files with a bang. I left them with a soft, private exhale and then I deleted the link. The copies remained; they are stubborn, like truth itself. I kept one copy hidden in a place no one ever thought to look: a box of my father's old tools, wrapped in newspaper, tucked behind a rotten plank in the barn at my mother's house.
Sometimes I imagine I will burn them. Sometimes I imagine I will give them to Violeta and say, "You were right all along, forgive me." But the files are part of me—the ledger of a man who tried to make justice out of hurt and made instead a kind of havoc.
"What should I do now?" I asked the mirror one evening.
"You go and be smaller," the mirror said back, if mirrors had answers.
So I tried to be smaller. I took the children to the park and bought hamburgers and fed Brynlee the first one like a ritual of apology. I held Eamon while he fell asleep and listened to the slow, even inhale of his chest. I gave away gifts without ceremony. I apologized aloud once and then again for the same thing. Sometimes that made no difference. Sometimes it did.
People still looked at us with the glances of those who know the story and say nothing. I became a man who carries his past like a weight, and sometimes I set it down and breathe. Sometimes I pick it back up and train myself to carry it without bitterness.
At the end of everything, the B-scan image sits in my head like a tiny bright thing. I look at its grain and remind myself that the world is messy and that punishment always brings more ruin than relief.
"Do you hate me?" Violeta asked one night, voice raw and real.
"No," I said. "I hate what I did to us."
She slid closer and then further away, as if measuring a distance she could cross or could not cross. The house hummed and the children slept. Outside, the lights blinked like small false promises.
I kept the evidence and smiled, because I could. But the smile had a cost, and the cost was everything I had once thought untouchable.
The End
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