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Lucky Ticket, Golden Snake — My Wild Run from Pawnshop to Premiere
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I was born into a house that fit too many people into too few square meters and too many dreams into too little time. My name is Mariah Blanc. I learned early that smallness can be ordinary and stubborn all at once: my skin was sallow, I stood a little shorter than most girls, I laughed with my whole mouth and showed the back teeth everyone pretended not to notice. And yet I had a hunger that made me put my palms to the sky and ask to be someone who could stand beneath a light and pretend to be someone else.
“Actor,” I said once in class when the teacher asked what we hoped to be. The room broke into unintentionally cruel laughter. “An actor,” I stammered, because my dream sounded like a borrowed costume. Still, that night I tied a blanket round my shoulders and practiced palace scenes, sword cries, tender kisses I had only seen on the screen. I was terrible, ridiculous, brave.
“Stop making a fuss and finish your homework,” my mother, Marta Alvarez, called as she opened my door, spatula in hand. The smell of stewed bones filled the little room — bone-money dinners that filled three stomachs but left pockets threadbare. I ate it with the gratitude of someone who knows their mother swallowed hunger first.
“Go to your grandmother’s for a few nights,” my mother said another morning. There was a desperate brightness to that suggestion — they wanted to tear down two walls and let light in. “Better for you to study away from the dust.”
I said yes because how do you refuse the promise of more light?
I came home one evening to find my father, Manuel Santiago, lying pale in bed with his hand wrapped in bandage. “What happened?” I asked.
“It’s nothing, just part of the renovation,” he said too casually for the way his fingers looked shorter than they should. It took me a moment to understand: half of his index finger was gone. “It’s fine,” he told me. “We’ll be all right.”
We were not all right. The house had been patched with the last of their savings, and the accident shrank our world in one sharp, bloody slice. I folded my face into my pillow that night and promised myself something I had never allowed before: one day, I would give them better bones to lean on.
A dream and a promise are small things; money is language. I learned that in college, when I saw cupboards stacked with labels and heard other students talk about careers as if success wore a uniform. I worked every hour I could find — supermarket shifts, late-night cleaning, waiting tables. I learned the names of every brand on sale and how much dignity cost in small installments.
One night, late, carrying broth that would become my dinner, I saw someone curled up in a doorway by the campus — a thin figure with hair across his face. “Here,” I said, holding out the pack of candy from my pocket. He took it without speaking. I prodded the check of his pocket, the reflex of someone who grew up sharing nothing: empty. He looked up at me and, with a rough little voice, said, “Sister, will you take me with you?”
I laughed at the word at first — "sister" — as if it made him smaller and gentler. There was a stubborn thing in me that could not leave a human to the night. “I don’t have a bed for two,” I said. “But I’ll buy you something to eat.”
We haggled with a traveling night's mood and somehow ended up in a cheap hotel because the dorms had already closed. When he stepped out of the shower a while later, my idea of the boy at the gate disintegrated into a man who looked like a magazine page come to life. He was pale and lit as if from an inner lamp, with shoulders that could have carried half my fears away. He told me, simply, “My name is Griffin Dominguez.”
“You’re a thief, you know,” I told him later, forcing a laugh when he grabbed the blanket and wrapped himself like anything could be rescued by cotton.
“I’m not a thief,” he said. “I was in a fight. I fell out of luck and into the wrong alley.”
I called him “the bag boy” in my head. He called me “the small actress” in his. We kept the titles like jokes between us.
“You owe me three days’ wages,” I complained when the bill was read.
He smiled and said, “Debt is a funny word. Lucky is better. I can make luck.” He rolled his eyes and said he could do palm-reading, and I rolled mine because I was poor and cynical as a habit.
“Let’s make a bet,” he said, sliding into a grin. “You buy the ticket and if you win, you buy me dinner forever.”
The next day we wandered a mall where I had never had the power to feel jewelry cold on my fingers. He took my hand and moved it toward a lottery machine that blinked and promised fortunes. “Big one,” he said. “Click the one you want.”
My wrist shook as I clicked at the topmost option, the one that cost nearly a week of my wages. “You’re insane,” I whispered.
“You’ll be my lucky charm,” he said, barely audible, and the machine purred and spit out the ticket. Then nothing until a text popped into my phone hours later: a voice of someone else telling me I was the winner of six hundred million.
“You’re kidding,” I said out loud, and Mabel Mathieu from my dorm came rushing over. “You got lucky,” she shrieked as if the world had changed its shape.
I stared and laughed and then cried and then began to plan as if riches were a tool and not a thunderclap. Griffin said, when he heard, “I told you. I told you your palm was brighter than mine.”
He came with me to the mall center to claim the ticket. Cameras and microphones buzzed like flies; people wanted me to speak. Bank men with glossed smiles took my details. Men with charity badges leaned into my space and asked whether I would donate. It was a circus and a minefield, but Griffin guided me like he had been put on the stage to steer me through it. “Don’t sign anything,” he told me. “They will expect you to give them miracles.”
“Who are you again?” I asked him, grinning with the ridiculousness of it all. He shrugged like a man who had learned to hide a whole life under a laugh.
After I paid my taxes — a monstrous sum — the rest sat in accounts and the world began to reorient itself around me. I sent money to my parents, bought a tiny house near campus so my mother would stop carrying back the weight of their life on her ribs. I bought myself a sensible car — nothing flashy, just a thing that would get me from point A to point B without shame. Mabel wanted to be my second shadow: “I’m your founding manager,” she joked. She took a two-hundred-thousand bank transfer as down payment into our friendship and promised not to blow it.
Griffin watched me buy fruit, laugh at the clerk, and choose bulbs of garlic like a queen picking jewels. “You look natural,” he said once, and I wanted, then, to arrange the world so his eyes would have to stop looking anywhere but me.
We fell into a rhythm: me, the actress-of-someday, biting my nails to keep from overreaching; him, the man who looked as if fortune had always been his tether and yet knew all the places where grit was currency. He arrived at my house one night with a box of bentos and a rose, eyes serious. “My father called,” he said. “He’s hurt. I have to go.”
“You don’t have to disappear,” I said, already knowing he shouldn’t be hiding.
“I will be back,” he promised.
That was parental duty; that was a son. A week later he was back, smelling of travel and coffee, as if business had briefly made him old. He showed up at the set the day I finally got my big break.
“Oh, that’s going to be your scene,” he whispered when I told him the director lined me opposite Evert Sjostrom, the famous actor who had the sort of face that people made movies about. “He’s the leading man, and he’s going to be intense.”
“You sound like you care,” I said, and he shrugged in the way rich boys do when they want to be casual about the universe.
My first set was chaos, with horses and wires and thousands of things a director had to pray wouldn’t go wrong. I practiced my lines until my throat felt dry. I trusted myself and I trusted Griffin — he’d arranged a man to be standing watch, and his presence was steady like a string that tethered me to land.
Then the fall happened.
We were riding; I was leaning into the wind and a strap tore. I flew. I hit stone. The world narrowed to the color of my breath. The director screamed. A line of extras went silent.
I woke in a white room to a voice that was part panic and part prayer. “She’s conscious. Quick, get the ambulance!”
Someone shouted out that the bridle had been cut — clean, neat, deliberate. “It wasn’t an accident,” a man said. My heart made a lurch nobody should ever feel, the one that places you on the edge of a cliff: something was trying to push me over.
The police came, the director scolded techs, and suspicion flitted like birds. The evidence pointed here and there: a missing watch; an empty spot on a camera; a man who swore he had seen nothing. “This was planned,” Griffin said quietly, and I believed him like a child believes a father will fix the light in the hall.
I wanted at once to run and to stay. The truth made no sound until small things were gathered: a half-remembered figure on a monitor, a recorded voice, a pair of hands who had been trembling under pressure. Penn Cobb, my agent of a sort, was thin and haunted and said little. “People have motives,” he said. “Keep low.”
A director’s assistant told us a different story in a breathless little voice. “It was money,” she said. “Someone doesn’t want her here.”
Some motives are tiny. Some are enormous. Katya Webb had been the kind of woman who wore attention like practiced armor — lacquered laughter, fashionable shoes, a way of moving that suggested the world had been made for her to select from. She had pulled strings in the school; she had smiled at men who counted their bank accounts like prayer beads. She had put herself often at the precise place that convenience had made into an altar.
“You know I don’t like her,” Mabel had warned the night before I started on set. “She plays a game.”
“You don’t say,” I had answered.
But the game crushed me. Penn Cobb — who had been enthralled by the idea of a career for me — got us evidence: a clip, a recording of a hush and a hand sliding a pill into the bottom of a glass. The culprits were tangled in a thread of fear and favor and greed. A small man named Emeric Sandoval confessed to the bridle-cutting, then recanted. He told the police he’d been used as an instrument by someone who owed debts she could not imagine not paying. The hospital bills were paid by the production; “It was an accident,” they said, “let’s move on.”
But you cannot step into a burning room and then act like ash never happened. Scenes are not the only places where truth must stand naked. I did not sue or shout. I watched. I let details line up like soldiers until the moment arrived when they could march in formation.
“Why did you come?” I asked Griffin a night when the sky was thin and lit with little lamps. He had brought me a gift — a small, cold ring shaped like a little coiled snake that clasped my wrist. “Because you are a symbol of luck,” he said, blunt and gentle both. “Because you owe me a life and I owe you one back.”
He told me, once, how he had really been the son of a man with a reputation and a business — not a beggar, not a drifter. He had left the life to know the world from the bottom and to make sure he could always reach down and pull someone up by her hand. “I wanted to see how people are when there aren’t lights,” he said. “I wanted to know what truth looked like.”
I had a film to finish and a skin of fear that did not go away. Katya’s envy became a plan; her father had favors and figures. She smiled in places that would minimize her guilt. But one night, when the film’s premiere drew near, and the festival hall spilled out upon the city like a chandelier of gossip, I decided there would be a reckoning.
We chose a gala as the place because that is where the world gathers to celebrate masks and to applaud illusions. A thousand people would be there, lights like bad stars blinking down upon the red carpet. Producers, investors, journalists with sharp pens. Katya believed she had made herself untouchable in this world; she would be wrong.
“Are you sure?” Griffin asked when I told him my plan. He had the easy authority of someone who could make calls with a word.
“I have nobody but me,” I answered. “And I’m tired of waiting for the world to fix itself.”
We prepared evidence like bakers prepare bread. Penn Cobb had found the recording of Katya plotting, the video of her with the man she’d used as cover, the payments recorded into a dead account. We had receipts, messages, witnesses. We had Emeric’s confession taped and his hands shaking as he spoke. We had the cut bridle with fibers that matched a knife bought from a shop in a handwriting that belonged to a loyal man on Katya’s payroll.
The night of the premiere, I walked in a dress that did not shout but held a weight like armor. Griffin’s hand found mine beneath the lights and I felt a small steadiness settle into me.
We waited for the moment when speeches, more small than large, would end and a film would take over the room. I did not go up on stage. Instead, Penn and a sympathetic projectionist arranged for a “technical segment” that would inexplicably begin ten minutes into the ceremony. There was laughter, toasts, applause. Then the screen — which was supposed to show the director praising the actors — pulled up.
The first second was breathless. An image of Katya, in a private voice, saying, “Do it tonight. He mustn’t stand on that stage. He has to be off the set.” Her tone was ordinary; the words were not.
“Who’s playing this?” someone asked from the crowd.
A voice, Penn’s, filled the hush like a hand on a shoulder: “Evidence, collected. I will explain.”
The clip unfolded: Katya instructing a friend to make the bridle look faulty. A bought man cutting the strap. A recorded confession from someone who had been paid a little and threatened with the death of their family if they stayed quiet. The footage moved like a river cutting rock: email threads, bank transfers, the face of a man whose panic had been turned into a mechanism of cruelty.
The reaction rose like a tide.
“Is this for real?” whispered a woman to her neighbor.
“Oh my God,” said a man, who reached for his phone. “She’s in the clip.”
“And there were witnesses,” Penn said into the microphone he had been given. “We have the bridle, the knife, the recorded threats. Please, everyone, stay calm. We will ask the police to come.”
“You did this?” Someone from Katya’s circle shouted. The lights above made her look small and furious. For a breath she was a queen who could not find a crown.
I stepped forward. I had not planned to speak, but the auditorium gave me a permit I had not asked for.
“You took a chance on my death because you were afraid of me living,” I said, not loud enough to dominate, but enough for those nearest to hear. “You tried to cut my life short. You thought because you were loud and pretty and your father gave favors you could choose who survived. You were wrong.”
At first, her face was the face of someone who had been called out for a petty theft — surprised, annoyed. “You lie,” she said, and her voice tried to be a whip. “You’re doing this for attention.”
Then Penn played the clip of Emeric, speaking into a poor recorder, sobbing, “They told me if I didn’t, they’d stop my mother’s meds.” He named Katya as the one who had threatened him. The audience shifted. Phones flashed. Someone murmured, “Record, record!”
Katya’s face lost its smoothness. There was a change: pride began to crumble into thinner emotions. “That’s edited,” she spat. “You’re going to pay for this.”
“Your account cleared ten thousand transferred to Emeric Sandoval’s name,” Penn said. “We have the bank trace. We have the messages.”
Her eyes flicked to the entrance, to the side door where security hunched like bears. She scanned the sea of faces and she saw them come alive with recording devices. People were already whispering, some shocked, some vindicated. Cameras zoomed in. A woman in the second row held up her phone and steadied, capturing the slow ruin. Someone recorded on their smartwatch, a journalist shouted questions into the microphone, and a chorus of phones made a recording measure.
Katya’s expression changed in stages: first bewilderment — “How?” Then a small, practiced denial — “You can’t prove anything.” Then an orchestrated defense — she called out names, demanded security, called me obscene words under her breath. Her hands began to tremble. When a police officer I had called in for the event stepped onto the stage, the tremor became a quake.
“Get out of my face!” she cried when someone in the third row pressed record closer.
“Sit down,” a gentleman beside her ordered, and then recoiled because the press had already started to ping like insects.
Someone had started to laugh, at first a short, cruel bark, but it didn’t stay cruel. It was the laugh that comes when someone falls and all the rehearsed protection slides off. People around her leaned forward like they had been waiting to see authenticity and got it like a slap.
“You’re lying,” she said, then breathed, and her voice broke. I watched as the good makeup of her face ran like a concession. “Please, I didn’t mean—” She tried for that last phrase that always sells: regret.
Then she dropped to her knees. Nobody quite expected the theatrical shift; it fell like silence on a drum. She put both hands to the ground as if the floor would forgive her.
“Please,” she mouthed, to whom I could not tell. She had lost everything in the angles of the room: power, money’s illusion, a father’s protection. The crowd that had once admired her now formed a ring of watching faces. Somebody clapped, a little, from the back, as if applauding a script turned real.
“Get up,” Griffin said softly, but his voice was iron. He had not liked the theatrics of a kneeling plea; he had always liked truth better than spectacle.
She looked up then, and I read the whole line of her change: from arrogance to panic to denial to a last, terror-born plea. She reached out, hands shaking, and said, “I didn’t mean for anyone to get hurt. Promise me—” Her voice was small. People took out their phones and murmured. Some clapped. Some recorded. Some stared like researchers.
“Beg for your mercy,” someone yelled at her, the voice not mine and yet a chorus of the people’s sudden appetite for justice. People started to circle, murmuring about how the world had arranged such that certain people could preen and hurt while others suffered. They wanted an image now: the arch of drama that would prove cruelty could be named.
Her face darkened; she stood on knees that had been meant to be a plea and finally became what she had feared: supplication. “Please,” she said again, voice cracked, “Please, forgive me, forgive me. I will pay, I will—”
Her public disassembling lasted the length of a bad fever: bright, hot, then cooling. She crawled to the edge of the stage and pressed her palms to the wood, and for the first time I saw real shame glide through her posture. Security took her aside. Phones kept filming. Someone in the crowd said to their friend, “Post this. Title it: ‘When Privilege Cries.’”
Katya’s reaction had the sequence I had been waiting for — arrogance, then shock, then denial, then collapse, then begging — and the crowd responded as I feared and hoped they would: with shock, with curiosity, with the kind of hot justice that social media gives like a verdict. Some people recorded. Some cried. Some applauded. The cameras followed the arc like hawks.
The police took the evidence. Katya left the building under an umbrella of murmured condemnation. She sent messages that read like someone trying to patch a shredded garment. “I’ll sue,” she promised. “You’ll regret this.” Her voice was made less of threat than of someone reeling.
I sat back while Penn finished explaining the documents and the police began to open their case. Griffin held my hand until the room’s hum moved to another frequency.
Afterward, the social feeds lit up with the phrase “golden snake” — a thousand people used the tag to compare me and my little bracelet, to try to rewrite my story into something else. People did not see the hours of fear, the nights of research, the late calls; they saw the spectacle. And spectacle has a hunger of its own.
The court of public opinion kept going for days. Katya posted a video that tried to reinterpret everything as jealousy; it didn’t work. She made statements from lawyers that sounded like paper towels pressed to a stain. She was suspended, then expelled from her institution when the dean wanted no smell of scandal near the school’s reputation. Jobs walked away from her like shadows avoiding precipitation. She got a cheaper apartment. She no longer had the same networks that braided her into the world.
In the weeks that followed, she tried to reach me with excuses that looked like offers. “I can help you with connections,” she offered once, voice soft in a hallway outside a meeting. I shook my head and said nothing. The people she thought would lift her shrugged: money can buy many things but often not trust.
Griffin and I kept moving forward. The film I had worked on finished production and then premiered. Evert Sjostrom — the man I had kissed and acted opposite — pulled me aside and said, quietly, “You held your ground.” On the premiere night, a thousand people cheered the performance and the kissing scenes were part of the conversation, but the story that stuck to me was the one people always remember: a woman who would not be pushed off her horse.
The film’s awards came and still later a magazine offered me a shoot. Someone from a charity wanted me to speak. The world archives everything by beauty and damage; we had both.
As months came and went, Griffin did what men with inherited power sometimes do: he made a plan. He was not a man who liked his life split in two. His father, Farrell Hofmann, had pressed him toward a convenient engagement with Katya’s family because business favours look like marriages on paper. Griffin had refused. “I will not be your pawn,” he said to his father once in a phone call that I happened to hear. “We will do business on better terms.” His father, who had been shrewd all his life, had sighed, “Then choose carefully.”
We lived our days sewing together small things. Sometimes we fought over eggs and money like ordinary people. Sometimes we fought over the soft things that belong to lovers. Once, he said to me with a grin, “I will be your accountant of luck,” and then he did exactly that: he drew plans and spreadsheets in his spare hours and bought properties in ways that would shelter us.
And then there was the matter of the gold snake. Griffin gave it to me on a quiet hill where we watched a cheap projector bite at a white sheet and the world’s best actors kissed and got away with it on celluloid. “For luck,” he said, “and because people keep things and tell stories with what they carry.”
It was mine, no one else’s. It glimmered when I put my wrist under the light. Sometimes I would let it slide within the cuff of my sleeve, a small comfort that could be a chain and not a shackle.
“You used to say you would buy me a house of light,” I told him once when we sat with our knees touching, watching the city breathe.
“I will,” he said, and there was a solemnity in his voice that promised more than numbers. “And if anyone ever tries to cut your bridle again, I’ll cut theirs first.”
I laughed then, because words can become vows and vows can become the architecture of a life.
There were tests. People still tried to slide shadows into the spaces we occupied — a whispered rumor here, a threat there. But we kept building. I kept acting. I learned how to make myself larger without breaking the smallness that made me kind. Once, a director asked how it felt to be a woman who had been through a scandal and still stood. I told him, plainly, “I learned to keep my hands open.”
“And if someone storms your set?” he asked.
“If someone tries,” I said, “I will let them have their public fall. People prefer drama. I prefer truth.”
Time settles like dust. The gold on my wrist does not define me; it only remembers where I was standing when the world leaned in. The snake curls against my skin like a promise that a small thing can become talisman. It reminds me about the night on the hill, about the film that taught me to survive, about the man who made himself poor to see what poverty knows.
There are mornings now when my mother cooks without counting coins, when my father can admit a smile that reaches his eyes. Mabel still complains about my taste in hats and insists she is owed a private jet for life. Penn Cobb calls at odd hours with script offers. Griffin still pretends to dislike the spotlight, but he sits behind me at premieres like some stern angel and he claps the loudest when the cameras point at my face.
Once, on a night when the film had won its last award and the press had packed their bags to find another story, I placed the gold snake into a purple velvet box. “Maybe one day,” I said aloud, and Griffin answered, “Or maybe now.”
We did not get everything we wanted — hearts are complicated, and people are still people. But we learned, together, to take what we were given and to demand what we deserved.
When I go to bed now, I sometimes wind the bracelet on my wrist and I feel the slight weight of it like a river underfoot. It does not burn; it reminds.
I keep one promise that I repeat in my head when the night becomes too quiet: if anyone ever tries to cut the thread that holds me to what I love, I will show them their own reflection and let the world listen.
And if you ever forget which story is mine, look for the small gold snake on a wrist in the closing shot of a film where a woman rides again. It is there — quiet, coiled, and very much alive.
The End
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