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Three Hundred Years and a Dragon Bead
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This is my voice after three hundred years in a cold, narrow place.
"I am Clara Ford," I tell the bead that holds my soul.
"You still remember your name?" Finn Guerin—my son—asks me every night, and his voice vibrates the small pearl as if he can rouse a sleeping heart.
He is the only warm thing left in a world that took my flesh away piece by piece. The prince, Clyde Ramos, came and took from me what made me whole. He dipped my scales in bowls, he drank the blood set aside for Phoenix fever, and he told the court that my death would feed a marriage. He said he loved another; he called her Frida Avila. He promised things I believed, and then he locked me under the stone for three hundred years.
"When will you come to see me?" Finn would ask, placing the bead against his chest.
"You will be brave," I would whisper back from inside, though I could not make sound then. "Be brave and keep this close. Keep me close."
I remember the day the prince came with news. "Clara," he said then, voice flat and ceremonial, "Phoenix Frida is healed. You will be released from the treatment regimen."
"You mean?" I tried to laugh; my throat answered with nothing. My scales had been stripped so often that what remained was threadbare. I tried to stand and could not. He reached for me, and for one small, absurd instant he looked like he felt. "You will not die," he told the guard, and yet he had been the hand that gave the sentence.
He carried me out like a relic. His eyes—so used to command—widened as my body cooled and lost form. "How can you still..." His voice broke. He had been loud in the halls when ordering sacrifices from me. He had worn red and parade finery the day he betrothed a phoenix. Now he flung his arms wide in panic.
"Tell them," I wanted to say. "Tell them you knew." I only felt the last of my shape fluttering away.
When I fell, my soul did not sink into oblivion. It flared, and then it found a bead—one I had left under Finn's navel when I fed him mother-milk and lullabies. The bead was meant as a talisman, an anchor for a lonely child. My soul slipped in, and for decades I lived unseen, listening to his childish prayers and Ariel Brandt's soft voice.
"You are my whole world," Finn said to the bead one night when he was still a child. "When I'm angry, I throw my toys. When I'm sad, I open the bead."
"I am here," I answered in those long years of silence. I learned patience as a pearl learns polish. I smelled the sea that kept him, tasted the salt of his breath when he slept. I was close but not free.
When my soul finally reached the edge, the world had changed. I felt a new power push against the bead like a current. It was Rene Belov—an elder of Wanlong Mountain, a man with a look that made the younger dragons quiet. He had the eyes that pierce the true heart.
"Come out," he said one morning as Finn cocked his head and called my name.
"Mother?" he breathed when he saw me appear, an echo of the child who once pressed my talisman to his lips.
"Yes, I am back," I said.
"What happened?" he asked, and his fingers trembled when he lifted me.
"You are small no longer, Finn," I laughed through my first real voice in centuries. "You are my son, and you are fierce."
Rene Belov watched us like a hawk until the caution softened in him. "You are not the creature I expected," he muttered once. "But you are the one I waited for."
He took us to Wanlong Mountain, to the old halls where ancestor dragons keep their memory. There the air had weight like an older age; there the elder's robes were embroidered with living clouds. For reasons I learned later, Rene had been waiting centuries for a pair of souls to come together—two threads that had once intertwined.
"Watch him," Rene said, fishing Finn from my arms. "He will be tested. We will teach him to be a man."
"We will?" I asked, surprised by how much I wanted to be beside my son again in the open air.
"Yes," Rene said, and a slow smile broke his austere face. "Because you belong here."
We stayed. I learned to shape my soul further, to let the breath of the mountain carry my voice to those who could still hear me. Rene taught Finn sword forms and calm. He refused to let Clyde Ramos near our quiet. He said, "We will not have a prince who takes like a thief."
Time passed in measures different from those of men. Finn grew from a boy to a warrior with small hands and loud compassion. Rene grew softer at the edges; his old guard stance became a teaching hand. I warmed to him because he did not want me for what I bore; he wanted me for who I was.
Then war came.
"Frida has moved against the court," Rene told us when the news arrived like a storm. "She holds the flames of a phoenix and the mind of a politician. She made a deal with those who would rip the heavens."
"You mean to say she betrayed everyone?" Finn asked, eyes narrowed.
"She betrayed what she wanted," Rene said, and it was not entirely unkind. "And she used others as a ladder."
I remembered the shard of flash that had sat in the prince's chest—the look he gave Frida across the courtyard when they declared an engagement. She wore silk that made her appear as a living torch. She was cruel in the ways of those who gain power with promises. I had been a pawn; Finn, their coin in his purse.
"You will not touch him," I said to Finn, voice a low blade. "You will not cave to the need to be small."
"We must do something," Finn said. "They took you. They took Ariel. We cannot watch."
Rene drew a breath. "Then we will act. But we will be smart."
We moved like water. Rene rallied the mountain guardians; Finn led a band of dragonborn novices; I sent threads of my presence to spy. We pushed into the heart of the palace at the very hour Frida’s allies thought they were safest.
I remember the first clash as if through stained glass. "Stand!" I shouted as I took a shape to distract a group of phoenix lancers. The bead that was me shimmered in Finn's crown. He held me like a compass and walked straight into the center of the plot.
Frida stood on a dais, tall and cruel. "So, the little pearl speaks," she said, eyes like live coals. "Did the dragon play hide-and-seek?"
"You've burned too many innocent hearts for your throne," Finn told her. "Let them go."
She laughed. "Prince Clyde is at my side," she said. "You would fight me for scraps?"
Clyde Ramos was there in the crowd, a sickly mix of crimson finery and a pallor that had not been after my death. He watched as if he were one of the court's curiosities. His mouth moved because duty had taught it to move; his eyes were empty.
"Where are you?" I asked him out loud then, letting my voice skip the hall.
"You think to shake me with words?" he croaked. "I am the sky's steward—"
"—You are the thief who sold a mother's life," Rene interrupted, voice cold as a blade. "You are the man who thought he could buy power with another’s blood."
The hall hushed. The palace was full—old gods, minor lords, the watchers from other seas. Someone lit a torch. Someone put down their wine. Eyes turned like a slow tide.
"Make them see," Rene said gently.
Rene moved with a motion like a king felling a reed. He struck a chord on the ancestral gong and the sound swelled. The court's detail stilled and the truth came unrolled like a tapestry.
Finn stepped forward and held the bead before the duke and the judges. "This is my mother," he announced. "She was taken. She was used. Clyde Ramos did this."
A murmur rose. "Clyde Ramos?" someone echoed. "The prince?"
"Yes. The same," Finn said. "He traded Clara for a throne's favor. He let Frida take what she wanted."
The hall divided into whispers like a crowd before a storm.
"Speak, woman," Frida snarled.
I let my mind reach outward—not to strike, but to show. I gave them the memory I had kept most hidden: the red bowl, the hands that took scales like coins, the day my form dissolved in Clyde's embrace. I gave them the sequence that burned within me: his bargain, the weeks of theft, the cold ceremony that crowned them. It was a bitter thing to give, but the hall drank each shard.
"You lied," a voice cried. "By the stars—"
"Watch his face," Rene said softly. "See how the thread snaps."
Clyde's features fell. He stared at us not as a conspirator but as a man confronted by the corpse of his own lies. The flush drained from his cheeks; the crimson of his robes looked suddenly like a stain.
"You—" he began, and his voice was small. "You cannot. I have served! I have—"
"Served yourself," Finn finished.
"Enough!" someone shouted, but the seed had been planted. The whisper became a blade and cut through the palace with a thousand tongues.
Rene rose and walked to the center. He did not shout. He did not slam a fist. He placed his palm on the ancestral stone and called for judgment. "By ancient law, by the old scales, the man who takes a life for vanity shall have his standing removed."
The judges did as the elder asked. They read the decree that had not been read in an age: the prince may be stripped, judged, and sentenced for sacrilege against the dragon line.
Clyde's face went through a parade of colors: first surprise, then a desperate denial, then a blank, stunned panic. "This is slander," he sputtered. "I— I loved..."
"Love does not grind bones," Rene said.
The guards closed in. Someone in the court cried, "Photograph this," though "photograph" is a crude modern word for them; they took sigils and quicksketches, the new chroniclers who set public memory. Eyes in the balcony pulled out devices that recorded voice and image. A crowd thrummed with the satisfaction of seeing a high man brought low.
Clyde tried to reach for dignity and found only hands. He rallied a final, pitiful defense. "I married her—" he began.
"You promised marriage to another to mask your guilt," I said. "You took my scales and called it needed for ritual. You have been a slow, careful thief."
He recoiled as if struck. "No!"
"No?" Finn asked, small and fierce. "Look at them, Clyde. Look at what you cost me. Look what you cost my mother."
He paused, then lowered his eyes. For the first time when he looked at me, I read shame and the taste of vomit. He had never been able to sustain remorse; now it poured out like a badly bound wound.
"Your sentence," Rene intoned. "By the court's will, you will be stripped of your name and your robes. You will be banished from the palace and from any station within the court for seven generations. You will be bound to the Tower of Atonement where you will tend the flame and remember what you did. You will stand at public hearings and listen to those whom you hurt speak their truth."
"Wait!" Clyde begged. "Not—"
"You will be made to watch," Rene said softly. "You will hear the cries of those you used. You will have no refuge in excuses."
The guards moved him. The crowd watched as the prince's arms were loosened from their pomp and wrapped in plain cords. Women who had once curtsied at his steps spat and turned away. Men who had bowed now looked into his face and found no favor.
He fell to his knees before the hall and begged—not for mercy so much as for the illusion of it. He asked those he had wronged to forgive him. He reached out to Finn, but Finn was far from soft now. "You are no father," Finn said. "You were a mask and you burned us."
"Please," Clyde sobbed. "I didn't mean—"
"You never did," I said, and my voice did not carry hate so much as a cold verdict. The court echoed with the long, terrible music of justice.
When they led him out, the crowds pressed close. Some pelted him with old tokens, thrown down like relics. Others spat words. A few, more noble, shook their heads with distant sorrow. The chroniclers blotted his features on pages that would be read and reread.
His fall was not a single blow but a long unmaking. He was taken past the markets and the harbor and into the Tower where men and women in robes of ash tied a ceremonial cord at his throat and read the names of those he had harmed. He signed papers he could not read as a symbol. Each hearing added a year to his sentence by the laws that would not be bent.
I watched as he changed. He went from rage to pleading to bargain. At last, there was acceptance—thin and cold like frost. He settled into his sentence like someone slipping into winter clothes.
But Frida Avila received a different fate.
Her punishment was to be public in a way meant to cut deeper than exile.
The morning the tribunal called her, the palace square swelled with those who wanted to see a phoenix humbled. Banners that usually greeted triumph now folded like closed wings. The bench of judges had ironed robes and set stones of justice between them.
"Frida Avila," the chief magistrate intoned, "you stand accused of sedition, murder of the faithful, breach of covenant, and the use of forbidden charm to alter the will of another."
Her skin, once radiant as living flame, had paled beneath the glare. She stood tall on the dais, but the faint sweat at her hairline betrayed her.
"You wanted power," Rene said from the crowd. "You used a heart for a throne."
"So you accuse me with a dragon at your back?" Frida hissed. "I did what I must. The world is cruel to the weak."
"That is the lie," I answered. "You used that cruelty to hide your greed."
The crowd buzzed. There were those who admired Frida's fire, those who had bowed to her, and those who had been burned. They stepped back like people at the edge of a cliff.
The judges ordered the bonds of the Phoenix Code—a chain of light that showed, in sight and sound, the truth of a life. They stretched a luminous net between two pillars and called for recall: memory, witness, name. The net lit up with the faces of those Frida had touched.
Ariel Brandt stepped forward. "You hurt my child," she said, and the words were small but full of pain. The memory appeared like a glass tableau above the net: the bowl, the scale, the bargain. The public watched my body diminish under Clyde's hands. They saw the bowl of blood and the hands of Frida tasting its heat. They watched the theft as if on stage.
Frida's expression changed as the net showed the truth. At first there was a curl of offended disbelief. Then old calm shifted into a hard, tight panic. She tried to call other memories, to constrain the net, but the ancient law is patient; once the net receives a thread, it cannot unravel it to hide.
"You used the forgotten charm to make her forget herself," Rene said. "You used it so the woman would love the man you chose. You made the court your theater."
"Those were choices for the good of the realm!" Frida cried, voice cracking. "You cannot understand—"
"A choice that kills is not a sacrifice," I said. "You steeped your robes in the blood of the wronged."
The tribunal ordered what the Phoenix Code prescribes for treachery against life and line: Frida would be made to walk the Trial of Witness. For seven days she would stand in the public square at midday and be presented with the faces of all she had harmed. Each day another urn would be set in front of her: the ashes of a life her schemes had broken.
"And you will speak," the chief magistrate said. "You will confess your crafting of charm and murder, name by name. The court will not only punish but will force the witness of truth."
The first day she stood on the stone platform while the square filled to the brim. People leaned forward from windows. Merchants abandoned stalls. The moment the bell struck twelve the first family came: a fisher whose hearth had been ruined by the phoenix-recruited raiders. He placed an urn in front of Frida and lifted the lid.
"You come now to make me kneel?" she spat.
"You will open it," the magistrate ordered.
She did. The scent of lost years and stale smoke rose, and a child's cry—recorded by the net—played once, then again. The fisher told his story in a voice that trembled but did not break. "You said you'd protect us," he said. "You promised us warmth, and you sold our kin to the flames."
Frida's face pale then darkened. The second day a family from the north set their urn down—a father and mother who had lost their daughter. "We thought you were a mother of the nation," they said. "We trusted you."
By the third day, her posture had shifted. Where she had once been composed she now twitched. The fourth day the crowd crescended into a choir of accusation, the sound of nails on a drum. The fifth day she tried to speak, to rearrange the narrative, to say she had been tricked herself, but the net had held her deeds and her words in a mirror. Each plea became a fracture.
On the seventh day, they brought the bowl—the same shape as the one in my memory. Ariel Brandt walked with it, and Finn held my bead at his throat. Frida had to look at it. The square hushed. She saw in one glance the proof of what she had done set for all to see.
Her eyes went from disbelief to horror. She staggered, and then her face dissolved.
"Stop this!" she screamed, and for the first time her voice had no command in it. It was a wail of something lost.
"You will carry the knowledge," the magistrate said, voice like iron softened by pity. "This is the new justice. You will live with what you did."
They ordered a final rite: the phoenix binding. It would strip Frida of the glamor that made her desirable. They would unweave the charm threads she used on others and leave her with blemish and memory. The ritual would not kill her, but it would leave her visible to the world in a new form—a reminder and a warning.
She fell to her knees as the chorus of the city recited names. "Forgive me," she begged no one in particular. "I did what I did to reach the top. I had to—"
"You did it to hurt innocents," Ariel said.
Around the square the crowd shifted. Some wept softly. Some cheered. Many recorded what they saw. They took images and carved the ledger so that Frida's fall would be told without flattery.
When the ritual finished, when the binding had been set, Frida's hair had lost its luster. The feathers that had made her regal were dulled. The brightness in her eyes had chipped away like enamel. She was made to leave the square, to walk through the city and watch the faces who had once bowed to her. People did not spit at her now—they saw her, and in that seeing was a thousand small shames that would not let her hide.
She walked past the markets where women remembered her smile and felt nothing; past the docks where men once sought her hand and now averted gaze. Merchants would not offer her stalls. Children would not gather near. She was reduced to an ordinary life, with every day a small punishment: to be visible and to have to endure memory.
Clyde, in his exile, watched the records. He saw the Trial of Witness and he saw Frida pass. He learned what he had cost. His hunger for power turned into raw ache. He begged for mercy in the tower and learned what it means to be seen.
The punishments were not vulgar spectacles. They were designed to make the guilty live among the truth of what they had done, to watch the ripple of their acts. They tore illusions and left bones.
Later, in chambers lit by a softer fire, Rene and I were given honor and charge. Finn stood taller by my side. We had won a justice that fit our laws and our hearts. The palace would not forget—for the chroniclers etched each hearing—and the children of those who watched would tell the story. In that telling, the pearl that had kept me safe would be a lesson.
"Will you ever forgive?" Finn asked me one night, when the torches guttered and the wind pressed soft against our window.
"I have learned to live beyond the wound," I said. "Forgiveness is small; justice is large. I wanted to be a mother, not a martyr."
"And Rene?" he asked.
Rene Belov sat near and tapped his fingertips on a scroll. "I will always remember the smell of old storms," he said. "But you, Clara, you are home."
I looked at him and then at Finn. The court had been settled, but my heart had found its own court in the mountains. The dragon bead warmed against Finn's chest, and I closed my eyes.
Years after, the pearl sits now on a chain at Finn's throat like a compass. People will still whisper of the prince who fell and the phoenix who learned to watch. The court will remember the day the mountain elder rung a gong and made truth a public thing.
When I sleep, I do not dream of the red bowls anymore. I dream of small hands and slow lessons and the sunlight on Rene's robes. I wake to Finn's voice and the steady beat of a life rebuilt.
"Mother," he says, every dawn. "Show me the way."
"Follow the bead," I say. "It will show you the way."
The End
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